J-OLIN (:

4m.

2011-12-16T14:33:00.002+08:00

I just keep remembering it .

I just have to keep on reminding myself how lucky I am !

I HAVE MY RETARDS <3
I HAVE MY BESTFRIEND LMX <3

I HAVE MY AWESOME-SUPER-GOOD-FRIENDS <3

Even in JC , I have a handful of close friends too ! ^^
Like an airplane ,

I am the controller ,

I have a pair of wings that enables me to fly :D

I have my engines to keep me going ^^v
I have an engineer to keep my plane stable =)
Even though I lost my co-pilot , I CAN STILL SURVIVE !

ROAR.

Hehehe , am not really looking for a potential candidate at the moment though .

Not like anyone will apply for this post LOL .

Anyway the times spent with these newly made friends are very fun too !

THE OUTINGS/DATES , KBOX , POOL , MOVIES & ARCADES :D

Its really enjoyable !

I LOVE THOSE HAPPY TIMES !
WANNA DO IT MORE OFTEN BUT NEXT YEAR IS A LEVELS ALR !

Hahaha , wouldnt it be sad if we all dont meet after A levels alr ?

I guess so .

So we all just have to cherish the remaining time spent together eh ?

^^

I've learnt so much , experienced so much this year !

It wasnt a really bad thing afterall I guess .

I found a precious gem this year ! *winkwink*

Who would have taught it exists ?

HAHA , its fun though .

For that someone ,

CAN UNDERSTAND MY LAME JOKES

CAN PREDICT MY NEXT MOVES

CAN WORK WITH ME TO CARRY OUT OUR LAME "PLANS"

CAN COME UP WITH RHYMING POEMS TO DESCRIBE OUR FEELINGS/MOODS

CAN MAKE ME SMILE JUST BY "HYPNOTIZING" WITH THE EYES

CAN MAKE ME LAUGH BY MAKING A STUPID FACE

CAN CHEER ME UP WHEN I'M SAD

CAN TALK TO ME ALL NIGHT WITHOUT COMPLAINING

&MOST IMPORTANTLY CAN HAVE FUN !

I dont need to hold back anything I have to say .

That's the best part of it all .
Although I dont know how long this friendship can last ,

But its enough to make a difference in my life .

For it has saved me from falling deeper whenever I trip .

Its like someone threw a rope down to pull me up .

Even though you cant see how deep the bottom is ,

You didnt give up hope !

Which is why I can see the light !

I can smile again , laugh freely again :D
Its been so long since I'm able to do that .

It feels so good !

You're the gem of the year ! ^^
HAHAHA , honoured eh ?

OKAY ANYWAY I ALSO DK IF MY GEM WILL SEE IT .

But still , I'm so glad I've met you ! (;

ohmygawd, finally a happy post! TEEHEE

Every 15th,

2011-12-15T20:39:00.002+08:00

Ohmy , been long since I came here .

Like real long .

&So much has changed .

Yepyep , just so much .

What can I really say ?

Is it a good thing or is it bad ?
This year is really hell lot of drama .

LOL , my life , my life .

Learnt so much , yet hurt so much .

Got more confused than ever ,

Felt more helpless than ever .

I dont know why , but my heart still reacts .

Not on 16th but on 15th .

Its as though it was served as a reminder .

Like an alarm clock , one that I cant/dont know how to off .

Its better , but not gone .

How do I make it go away ?

Will it really stay ?

Gonna be 4 months alr .

There should be a limit to this .

It cant go on like that .

The good thing is well ,
I'm happy now (:
I can smile , I can laugh .

I dont cry anymore .

I feel good .

But things still reminds me of you .

不好不好。

能教教我怎么把你忘掉吗？

Looking through Facebook ,

Well , you can call me a stalker LOL .

But ohwell , fb lets you know more about a person doesnt it ?
Dont want people to know then dont post !

I see teenagers in love .

But are they really in love ?

I keep questioning myself .

Am I really in love ?

They claim to love the guy/girl ,

then after they broke up ,

2 weeks later ,

A new guy/girl .

Then BABY ILY <3

LOL .

I really wonder how much is true .

Can you love a person right after you get together with them ?

But seriously , only afew weeks after you say "I love you" to your ex and now you can love another person so easily ?

I'm amazed .
Either you get over people real fast , or its all lies .

I try not to judge , since I dont know the whole story .

I just feel that love comes so easy to them .

What is LOVE ?

It doesnt get clearer to me .

In a relationship , there are so many factors .

Is it really that easy to "go for it" and then see what happens ?

Maybe its just me cause I think alot ,

Well , HELL LOT MORE .

What if that person dont suit you ?

What if it gets boring ?

What if one argument is all it takes to end this ?

Doesnt all this makes it meaningless ?

&You get your heart broken ?

What's worse is if the guy isnt even taking you seriously .

I'm not saying all the guys are like that .
Those are just people I've seen .

I dont think they all started like that ,

They probably got hurt too .

That's why I say ,

I dont know what girls are thinking nowadays .
EVEN THOUGH I AM ONE .

Really , they confuse me .
I cant read them .

I dont wanna hang out with those complicated girls either .

Since I might end up as complicated as them .

For now , I dont really believe in love .

Unless someone can convince me otherwise .

Can guys and girls be really just friends ?

My friend was discussing this topic with me last week .

Well , I do believe so .

Because I have a handful of close guys friends .

&I know they are not interested in me in the romantic way and vice versa .

Should friends become lovers ?

I can only say that , the chance of me falling for a friend is probably a hundred times more than a stranger .

But should you ?

What if it destroys your friendship when you break up ?
Ever think about that ?

Its really all so confusing .

I feel so suffocated and trapped in all this shit .

But I cant run away from it ,
I just keep thinking .

I think love isnt for a person like me .

A guy that suits me .. ?

Does he even exist ?

Can anybody hear me ?

2011-09-27T22:02:00.002+08:00

I still think about you .

I thought it was over .

THIS IS DAMN FRUSTRATING .

WHY.WHY.WHY.

Sucks , when I talk about you my heart sinks .

I dont cry anymore .

I hope it stays that way .

All these feelings ..

Just go away ~

Dont come back ,

Just like the way you wouldnt .

Every song reminds of you .

Especially 谢谢你的美好 .

I look at your profile , thinking I could face it you know .

But I cant , my heart sinks further .

Lost the momentum .

Memories .

Do you still think of me ?

You seemed the same without me ,

You dont seemed to be affected at all .

Life's as great as ever eh ?

You dont tell me anything ,

Even up till now ,

Idontknowanythingaboutyou.

I can only guess .

Even your feelings for me .

Why didnt my brain process those signs ?

Why didnt my brain send the message to my heart ?

Idontknow if I want promos to be over .

I'll just have more time to think of you ,

what's worse ,

Remember all the plans I've made in MY MIND for you .

HAHAHAHA , stupid girl .

WHY SO DUMB ?

ILOVEYOU=BULLSHIT .

What you said to me , bullshit .

Really , why I believe .

Why .

Cant really blame anyone except for myself .

Hopefully , a better girl will appear in your life .

The one that's just NOT like me (':

I dont shiver anymore , guess that's good news .

Oh btw , can you return me my heart now ?

Cause I cant feel my heart beating anymore .

Why cant guys make the first move ?

Why must girls be the one making the first move ?

I'm not saying girls cant , its just that the girl will be at disadvantage when they do that .

They put themselves at risk , of being seem desperate .

Because guys are generally considered the "stronger" race ,

They should be the one making the first move .

I'm not saying they dont hurt , just lesser compared to girls .

They can shrug it off , why fear of rejection ?

When people talk about a boy , they will praise the guy for being brave .

For having the courage to confess to a girl .

When people talk about a girl , they only gossip about how she look ,

Her taste , &if she fails , laugh at her .

Who will actually admire her courage ?

Girls are generally more shy , should be the one protected .

So why should they hurt themselves ?

But doesnt really matter now alr right ,

So tired of being the one to make the first move .

Why should I sms you first ?

Why should I say hi ?

Actually I dont mind doing that , in fact I always make the first move to girls .

&Yes , I can clearly see the difference in reply .

When I make the first move to a girl , conversation can generally continue .

But when I make the first move to a guy , oh there goes , they show that they're not interested .
They give 1 word reply .

Oh maybe playing game lah .

Some even ignore , best .

I'm not saying all guys are like that , but most that I met are like that .

They just dont care about you .

But things get different if they talk to you first .
REALLY .

Oh well , I shouldnt care so much anymore .

Not hoping for a proactive guy to pop out of nowhere .

But yeah , just saying .

So ladies , if a boy takes effort to start a conversation with you , appreciate it alright .

Cause its kinda rare that happens .

Because right here right now we're in Singapore .

&The guys here are generally a little bit different .

They do expect girls to make the first move .

Try for your love , dont regret .

I never did regret loving you ,

But you've shattered my confidence .

I wonder how long I'll take to piece it all up .

Dont worry about me yeah , I love puzzles ,

I'll get it done in due time .

Oh right , you probably dont worry about me because you dont even ask about me .

I forgot , HAHA .

Even though you said you'll still worry .

I'm sorry I only remembered that part .
HAHA , I forgot the part where you didnt even ask .

LOL , blur me .

I want to ask about you , but I'm scared .

Yeah , I'm a coward .

I'm really scared of talking to you .
Whenever I see you online , my heart sinks .

Sinks lower than ever , it doesnt gets up .

Yet , I dont bear to click the delete button .

No more me in your life , yet you still live in mine .

Unfair world .

Now that my prince has taken my heart away ,

Will my knight in shining amour come save me ?

HAHA , or perhaps a Devil ?

Oh right , I shouldnt believe in fairytales anymore .

I'm not a kid , I'm 17 years old alr .

LOL , big girl now .

However , still a long way to go .

I'll learn , I'll learn .

I believe one day , I wont be afraid of bumping into you .

I will be able to smile at you .

Till that day comes .

I'm sorry , we cant be friends anymore .

Not until I get over you , completely .

Was it easy for you ? Broken ?

2011-09-16T23:09:00.003+08:00

Can this be fixed ?

I never felt this way .

You waited for me to fall for you, and then at the last second, you moved away, and I fell onto the ground, instead of into your arms.

What should I do ?

I wanted to write you a letter ,

But I guess its too late .
It wouldnt change anything ,

So I'll just keep in right here , <3 .

In there .

So much happened , So many memories .

Maybe you really dont think you're important to me .

You are , &You do own a big part .

But I guess you'll never know now .

Unless you're reading , which is near impossible LOL .

JOKE .

Living with a broken heart is like having broken ribs .

On the outside it looks like nothing's wrong, but every breath hurts .

I dont hurt the way as though the heartbreaks ,

I feel like my heart is surrounded with stuff .

Like black clouds , it gets heavier whenever I think of you .

The day you left , is the day it rained in my heart .

It couldnt stop , it did get better but its still drizzling now .

I cant stop you , I couldnt give you what you wanted .

I'm sorry , but sorry doesnt turn back time .

For all the things I've done to you , I wish that I could make it right .

However , I cant .

I guess we are two very different person afterall .

I just thought maybe we're an exception , maybe we could fit together .

I was wrong , really wrong .

Now both of us gets hurt , oh okay maybe its just me .

But I would like to think that you're probably hurt too .

Thinking of you being sad makes me feel worse than ever .

I remembered the day when I told you to leave me and let me go home on my own .

When you turned and left , I wanted to cry .

I thought you were like a lost and sad puppy .

&Now you left on your own .

I probably deserved that .

I was too scared .

I guess it was just me all along .

I didnt love you at the start , I told you to try remember ?

But please , dont say I love you to me when it wouldnt last .

I fell deeper as time passed , while your feelings fade .

We're in an inverse relationship huh ?

I cant stop thinking of you after you left .

You'll only know the true value of things that are gone right ?

Yeah , now I know the true value of you in my heart .

Too much , you take up too much space .

You were my best friend , my diary .

Gone , all gone with the wind now .

Why didnt you take all the pain with you ?

Why are you letting me suffer it alone ?

Things just couldnt work out between us right .

So many idontknows , uncertainty .

You cant get an answer .

You didnt make any promises to me ,

I'm thankful for that .

I dont regret this , I'll learn .

But not right now , I'm still thinking of the "what ifs" , "should have" .

Nah , I'm just living in denial .

Because I've forgotten how I lived without you .

Ohboy , I'm a contradicting girl .

You know right ?

I'm a living contradiction .

I want you to be happy , but not without me .

I dont want you to hurt , yet I want you to hurt because of me .

I love you , yet I'm afraid to .

Hey , it isnt suppose to be this way boy .

It isnt , it should have a happy ending like in all fairytales .

You were my prince , right from the start .

Or maybe , maybe ..

Somehow , I wished that you loved me as much as I loved you .

Or maybe the other way round .

Not possible now I know , I know .

So give it up girl .

Though giving up and letting go is two different thing .

Gotta take the first step right , how long has it been alr ?

Almost a month to the day you bid farewell .

See ? He didnt come back , &He aint going to .

Face it , stop habouring all those stupid/dumb ideas/wishes .

Worth it ?

I still think he is .

But hey , Geminis' are better off listening to their head than their hearts right ?

Should have learnt ,

My dumb heart , you get lost too easily .

Now come back right here before you get crushed into more pieces .

I never knew I was so weak , really .

I always thought I was strong , strong enough to handle .

I was so wrong , stupid move .

So many things I wanted to say but I cant bring myself to .

Ohboy , why dont you ever have things to tell me ?

I give up my prince , I have to let you go now ..

Cause I aint your Cinderalla .

I'm not waiting for a prince. I'm waiting for someone who thinks I'm his princess. ♥

The day you went away .

2011-08-28T22:07:00.002+08:00

Maybe that's how it always ends .
HAHAHA , dont think I dare try anymore .

HELLOHELLO MR RIGHT , come find me soon alright ?
(OMG IT ACTUALLY RHYMES)
LALALALA , I really wanna change blogskin but I DAMN LAZY LOL .

Okay , so phy consulations are getting more and more effective .
GAINING BACK MY CONFIDENCE YAY !
I must work hard !
PLEASE DONT SLACK ANYMORE JOLIN TAN ! *Smacks her head*

AHHH TETRIS BATTLE ! LOL LOL LOL .
KBOX KBOX all the way after promos okay !

MUST WORK HARD NOWWWWZ GOGOGOGO .
I AM SO CRAZY NOWADAYS .
Probably because I'm surrounded by high people LOL .
Which is I suppose a good thing .
But energy draining uh xD

Hehehhehehehhe , sianzxcccc .
Hmm , drama rama in schooool ~

EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO !~
Not good to be emo , but somehow ,
Feel a need to enjoy it sometime .

Hahahahhahahaha .
So what if I miss him ?
He wont ever come back right ?
I didnt expect it so soon , but oh well .
Let fate decide .

I hope the one's hurting only me .
Although knowing that he doesnt care wouldnt help .
&Knowing that it does will only make things worse .
I guess this is what you call , ignorance is a bliss .

So what if I love him ?
It has ended anyway ,
That's what happens when you follow your heart right ?
HAHAHAH STUPID BRAINS , why you SO DUMBBBBBB !

LALALALA , at least a good experience ah .
Horoscope reading is so funnnn ~
That's one of the ways you get to know more about a person .
Although its not 100% true of course :P
At least got 80% XD

I just created twitter !
YAY , A BIRD !
TWEET TWEET ! :D
SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEE HEHEHEHHEHE .

FB SO BORING NOW !
SO FEW UPDATES AND NOTIFICATIONS D:

GOOD ANYWAY NEED TO STUDY FOR PROMOS D:
Dont wanna let anyone down , and myself .
Haiz , buzhidao I studying for what D:

FUTUREE AH FUTURE , MIGHT AS WELL JIA YI GE RICH MAN SUA .
But who will want me ?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA , MR RICH COME FIND ME PLEASEEEEEEEEE ~ ?

Hehehehheheheh , I'mma lazy girl .
I dont do housechores :P

^^v

2011-08-15T22:40:00.002+08:00

Today shall be a happy post yay !

HAHAHAHA , I'm so motivated to do well now !
I must at least try my best even if I have to retain D:
At least I know I've gave it my best go !
SO JIAYOUJIAYOU JOLINNNN !

49 More days to go TO PROMOS !
START STUDYING !
GOGOGOGOGOGOGO !

Hehehe , after promos I'll be freeeeeeeeeeee !
&Hopefully I can pass with FLYING COLOURS ~
With my enemy's help , lummy wingwing ! :D

Hahahahaha , CA2 this time round may not be good .
BUT I MUST MAKE SURE PROMOS I WILL SCORE !
WATCH MEEEE . ARGH , PHYSICS ESPECIALLY !
ECONS HERE I COMEEEE ~~~
CHEM AND MATHS , I WILL CONQUER YOU !
MUAHAHAHA , Do I sound scary ?
I hope I do :D
HAHAHA .

Tmr is a special day ! <3 <3 <3 <3

My sky is falling .

2011-08-10T21:49:00.003+08:00

My world is crashing .
Nothing is going well for me .
Do I deserve this ?
I probably do .

I think nobody understands me , yeah .
Because they are not me right ?
Or is it because they are not willing to listen ?

My life is currently in a mess .
I really dont know what to do .

What if I retain ?
Can I prove him wrong ?
IDONTKNOW.

There is so many uncertainties in life ,
I dont like it .
But I cant do anything about it .

WHYWHYWHY ?
I hated this question , I dont like people to ask me why .
Yet , I like to ask people why .
WHY ?
Why is this happening to me ?
I hated the answer IDONTKNOW too .
But , I really dont know , the only answer I can give to others is idk .

So who can give me a definite answer ?
When I can I ever give someone a definite answer ?

I wanna be a baby .
Because whatever things a baby does is never wrong ,
WHY ? BECAUSE THEY DONT KNOW .

I dont wanna know anything , I dont wanna seem rude .
I dont wanna feel saddness , I dont wanna keep crying .

Ignorance is a bliss , indeed .

Do I sound like I'm complaining ?
IDK if I am .

When I'm sad , I just need someone to cheer me up .
When I'm stress, I just need someone to tell me I can do it .
When I'm crying , I just need someone to tell me everything's gonna be okay .
When I'm depressed , I just need someone to comfort me .
When I'm demoralized , I just need someone to tell me they believe in me .

That's totally what I'm feeling right now .

I dont wanna pretend to be happy , to be high , to be hyper when I'm not .
I just wanna cry , cry my lungs out .
I dont wanna hold it in every night , fearing someone would hear me .

Because if they do , they will surely ask , "what's wrong ?"
&All I can say is , " I dont know ."

Nobody can help me this way right ?
Because they dont know how to .

So who can I blame ?
Its not his fault that he doesnt know how to cheer me up .
Its not his fault to be pissed at me .
Its not his fault that he misunderstands me .

Because I'm so unclear ,
In a mess ,
uncertain about everything .

I'm a blessed girl , I know that .
I have a complete family .
I have a sister who understands and encourages me .
I have friends that care .

So why , tell me why ,
why am I so unhappy with my life right now ?

Why do I feel so screwed up ?
Why do I blame the schools I get into ?
Its me isnt it , if I weren't so dumb I wouldnt have got into it .

Speaking of dumb , aint dumb girls always happy ?
Where is the happy old Jolin ?
Where has she gone to ?
Where is that cheerful girl that can laugh at anything ?
Whose laughter can fill the whole classroom ?

Why am I so sad ?
Why do I feel like crying every night ?
Why do I feel so irritated so easily ?

I cant control my tears ,
I cant control my thoughts ,
I cant control my anger ,
I cant control my emotions ,
I cant control my feelings , anymore .

Hellohello ! (:

2011-08-04T12:45:00.002+08:00

Yo ! Damn long never blog alr !
Hehehe .
In school right now queuing for chicken rice !
Hahaha , staying for night study yay !
Tmr's phy ca , so scary ):
lalalala , okay shall end here for now (:
hohohoho !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! :D

2011-06-11T09:53:00.002+08:00

My Birthday is celebrated at MBS .
But apparently I'm not that happy , why ?

Hmm , I'm not excited .
I'm not hoping for anything ,
I'm not expecting anything .

Because I know , that's all yeah .

People say , its the thought that counts .
I agree , because I feel no thought .
yeah , NOT THOUGHT ABOUT .

What can I say ?
Would you celebrate with a group of people that is excited , happy for you on your birthday ?
Or rather a group of people that treat it as its no big deal ?

Frankly speaking I dont think I have much choice .

When I voice out ,
You say idk to appreciate .
Hey , I do appreciate , in fact I'm very much happy that someone bothers .
Someone remembers .
I'm probably bothered by the fact that you are the one that doesnt care .

Really , what do you want me to say ?
What do you want to hear from me that will make you listen ?
What can I do to get to you ?

You cant hear me , so how can I ask you to listen ?

I really didnt expect such a day to come .
But I guess , everyone have flaws , I guess yours have just been reflected more clearer now .

I hope I still have a place somewhere in your heart ,
that way at least I can still draw circles right ?

Hahaha , I really dont know what to do now .
Because no matter how much I do ,
I probably cant hear your encouragement ,
Your praises ,
Or even get your attention anymore .

The only thing I learnt from this is to appreciate your love more ,
But I'm not sure if its for the past , or even , the future .

Dont think you know me well ,
really .
You never know what I'm thinking ,
that , I can assure you .
Just because I dont voice out does not mean I dont have my own opinion .
Its just that , its useless to .
Because you dont listen .

xD !

2011-04-16T22:31:00.000+08:00

So loooooong never blog alr !
HAHAHA , school's been quite busy .
ESPECIALLY WITH PI TO DO !
:S

Just done my 3rd one .
Hahaha , now watching Playful kiss !
Hehehe , I think its quite nice .

CA's here !
I'm pretty nervous .
But must thank felicia for teaching me today !
Tmr going to vic's house to studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy !
HEHEHEHE .

Okay , short post ! :P
Byebyeeeee !~

CAMP !

2011-03-12T18:06:00.002+08:00

YOYOYO !
CAMP WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEE !
HAHAHAHA , damn fun ttm la !

Played lots of games and toooooook lots of pictures ! ^^
Our run was at 4.15am .
LOLLOL , i fell asleep at 945 , around there .
Once I got into the sleeping bag on the table , BAM , I'm out :D

HAHAHA , so shiok la .
5 hours of sleeeeeeeeep , woke up at 3am , then went to report for the runnn .
Took manymany pictures in the night ! ^^
SO COOL LA .
HAHAHAHA .

Walked till 5am , then went back to bed ! ^^
Hungry like shit but .. sleep more important :D

Woke up at 735am ?
HAHA , mass dance and friendship danceeeee !

&OH SOUL NIGHT WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEE <3
Everyone got damn high and it was damn fun screaming , shouting and jumping !
HOHOHOHO , enjoyed myself alot :D

Cant wait for the pictures ! xP
Hehehe , tireddddddddd ~

Tiring ~

2011-03-02T20:08:00.002+08:00

I didnt update for the past few days coz I was home late !
HAHAHA , damn tired this few days .
Lack of sleeeeeeeeeeep ):

Hmm , damn tiring .
Assignments (test in actual fact) , homework , project work !
ARGH ! >.<
All driving me crazyyyyyyy !

PW IS FUN LA !
ON SATURDAY .
LOL , not yesterday ~
Seriously , their work is so much more times better than ours yet they yet , they still got criticized !
AHHH , what will happen to us man ? :S
Ohno , I'm worried !

Today training ran 10 rounds in total .
Its pretty okay now , though still tiring :S
HAHAHA , I guess my leg's getting used to it ! ^^v

My memory is fading , I am getting forgetful .
Must be the lack of sleeeeeeep .
&Because of victoria , I eat alot nowadays .
LOL SERIOUSLY , we are both pig best friends la ! xD

HAHAHA , today went to pasar malam after training !
YUMYUM , spent like $5.50 but still hungry now ):

Lalala ~
School's kinda getting fun ?
But I'm getting tired .
Hope I can last !
Time passes kinda fast , &I'm loooooooking forward to the camp for our class to bond ! ^^v

Tmr having econs and physics test ! :S
Today's maths test cmi mannnnz . xD

HEHEHE , okay shall go now .
Today's shooting training made my hand shaking like siao .
Hold the rifle in the shooting position for 10mins !
OMFG , you know how heavy the rifle is ?
ITS 5 kg okay !
Dont playpay hor ! xP

SHOOTING COMPETITION !

2011-02-27T01:08:00.003+08:00

Today went to meet Beatrice , Kenneth , Kian Boon and Ain to go Yishun Safra to see the shooting competition !

Tense man !
But we were relaxed coz not us .
HAHAHA , cant imagine next year it would be us and everything will be diff !
Our emotions and feelings !
HAHAHA , & our name will be up there too ! :S

Hahah then went to YJC find Johanna !
Saw Jia Ning too ! <3
Hehehe , miss them alot manz !
Cant find nelson ):
AWWW , miss him but he doesnt miss me .
HAHAHA .

Then went to north point walk abit .
Then went homeeeeeeee ~
Like talking to kenneth :D
^^

Then reached home fell asleep !
Woke up at 8pm then proceeded to cousin's partyyyyy !
HAHAHA , quite enjoyable !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! ^^v

Then slacked at cousin's rooom .
hehehe .

Tmr going ecp cycle bah !
^^
Haven touched homework yet ! ):
SO DEAD .
ARGH , hates homework .
Tmr need chiong PW too ):

LALALALA , SIANZXC !
Goodnight sweetdreams people ! <3
I miss my WIVES ):

EHHHHHHHHHOOOOH !

2011-02-25T23:56:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA , damn tiring today sia !
Ran 8 rounds for shoooting !
OMGOMGOMG , split 4 , 4 though .
AHHH .

Tmr's totally dead .
Today lecture all damn sleeeeeeeeepy .
:S

Tmr going seee shooting competition ! :D
YAY !
Maybe after that go YJC find johanna :D
Hehehe , miss her ! <3

Tmr cant wake up alr sia :S
So tired , cant climb out of bed .

AHHHHHHH , all over aching like crazyyyyyyy !
Today went to ikea for dinner with my father and sisters ! :D
hehehe , damn funny sia .
He went crazyyyyyyyyy XP

HAHAHA DAMN EPIC SIA .
So long never laugh so much alr :D

Oh yeah I bought my purple shirt ! ^^
YAY , now top to toe is purpleee ! <3

Heheheheheh , okay I'mma gonna sleeeeeeep .
VICTORIA IS A NICE GIRL :D
AND I LOVE TO POKE HER ! ^^

Lalala ~

2011-02-24T19:46:00.001+08:00

TODAY WAS AWESOMEEEEEE :D
HAHAHAHA , went around poking people !

So funnnn !~
Yesyes , I'm deprived from poking people !
Hehehe , today was fun so wasnt that sleeeeeeeepy !
Didnt have 5 stations today !
Teacher wasnt here :D

Hehehe , ate alot with victoria wee today ! xD
Laksa then 2 hours later maggie meee !
LOL , gonna get fat real soon ! ^^

End school at 6pm today .
YEAH ! SUPER LOOOOOOOOONG DAY .
:O

Kinda tired .
Only have physics homework today , I'm so thankful LOL .

I WANNA HAVE DINNER WITH MANXIN!
AHHHHHHHH !
Tmr got cca again !

I only got Monday rest sia !
Tues&Thurs = PE !
Wed&Fri = CCA !

I'm gonna get real fit ! :D
Hohoho , muscles muscles !
xD

Okay I'm damn hungry now D:
Stomach kinda wanna die too D:
LOL .
Okay byeeeee ~ ^^

Training !~

2011-02-23T19:29:00.002+08:00

I finally passed my 2.4km ytd !
WEEEEEEEEEEEE !~

HAHAHA , 15.32 min !
HOHOHO , BEAT THAT !
xD

Okay its hard for me to get that kinda timing like seriously =.=
I'm so freaking happppppppy ! :D

Must be all that training for shooting !
HAHAHAHA , YAY YAY YAY .

Today had training !
But after training make us sit there for 1 hour !
THEN DISMISSSSSSS OMFG !
AHHHHHHHH , waste timeeeeee ~ :S

My sister was trapped outside the houseeeeee lor !
WALAOOOOO ~
Coz she never bring keys , if they released earlier she wouldnt have to wait so loooooong .

Ran 4 rounds today , Buddha clap and 30 sit-ups !
SCREWED TTM .
Seriously , tmr is my 5 stations .
IDK how I am going to survive D:

I'm in yellow houseee !
Probably gonna buy the purple house shirt tmr !
I like the material ! :D

&I found out another guy live at the same area as me !
YAY , can go home together next time ! ^^
Hehehe , shiokshiok .

Not enough sleeeeeep sia nowadays !
So sleepy in class ):
I wanna sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep !~

HOMEWORKS ARE KILLING ME .
Its not much , but I think alot , so yeah .
Takes up lots of time T_T

I'm still kinda in holiday mood .
Damn .

Today I was telling shi rong , shireen and victoria wee how drama my life was .
LOL .
Kinda fun :D

Hehehe , I'm hungry nowwww :S
I WANNA EAT DINNNNNNER !
BUT GOT NO ONE TO EAT WITH ME T_T

Hahaha , siansian !~
Shall go bathe now !
^^

Slack ! :S

2011-02-19T23:26:00.002+08:00

Damn slack todayyyyy !
Went out in the morning !
Woke up at 8.50am . LOL .

Tried to walk to school with my PC (Prince Charming)
LOL , but damn fail .
In the end , I kinda gave up and went to Tmall instead .
Had KFC for breakfast ! :D
Hehehe .

Then PC went off for work , so went to meet feli and jess !
Watch What Women Wants .
LOL , damn funny .
So I didnt fell asleep ! xD

Then met Johanna and went to eat lunch !~
LOL , jess and feli ate subwayyyyy !
Then Isaac came .

Walked walked and talked talked .
Hahaha , then went to Library !~
Borrowed another 2 books .
Every book I borrowed ( today 3 alr ) is using other ppl's card .
tsktsk , coz my ez-link card was lost before so cant alr ):

Hope got time to read finish ahhh !~
Then went to dte and eat FISH AND CO. !
Then rushed to NEX , see parents eat .
LOL , got lost in the NTUC when reading magazine .

Tmr probably gonna run and train for the 2.4km run .
Hehehehe , and chiong homeworkkkkkkkkkk !~

Okay I'm damn tired nowz !
Shall go bathe and sleeeeeeep ~
Byebye !
Goodnight sweetdreams (:

Sleeeeepy !

2011-02-19T00:13:00.003+08:00

Hehehe , today was kinda funnnnnn !~
Got along with more of my classmates !
But so screwed for physics test !
Shall not think about it now :S

Went for shooting and it was a disaster ! :O
Hehehe , P.T , P.T and more P.T !
OMG its killing me !
ARGH !
Ran a total of 2.4 km today .
Then lucky after that had lightning warning xD
HAHAHAHA , so dismissed !
Couldnt figure out why they asked us to go there in the first place =.=
Didnt do any shooting at all !

Hahaha , I feel inspired by the speech by the captain !
We have to stay committed ! :D

Its 12.15am alr !
YAY I'm in shooting alr !
Because No news = Good news !
If I dont receive any sms from him = selected !
WOOOOOOO !~

After that didnt stay for the friendship carnival .
HAHAHA , went home bathed and went out !

Met my "prince charming" ! LOL .
Ate popeye's !
YAY FINALLY GET TO TRY THE BURGER OMG .
But not as nice as I expected ! xD
Oh well , we walked to e!hub ate and play arcade !
Then walked back homeeeee !
HAHAHA , wind damn nice :D

Damn tired , I'm gonna sleeeeeep now ! ^^

Late School Day !

2011-02-17T16:48:00.005+08:00

YAY , woke up at 7.19am today !
HAHAHA , always just nice before my alarm gonna ring .
IDK WHY .

Hehehe , had econs lecture .
Kinda sleepy .
Had only a short break , 30 mins .
Not enough for me !
Cant get used to it !
HAHAHA .

PW is kinda confusing .
I'm not a very creative person so :X
Hmm , its taking up alot of my brain juice .

After that had CHINESE !
Awesome !
The teacher is funny and understanding , I like that :D
After that was breakkkkkk .

HAHAHA , went to return kenneth his book ,
ended up talking for about half an hour !
HAHAHA , he's so nice to talk to ! xD

At least , I think I'm closer to him than the guys in my class .
LOL .

I hope our class can be more bonded ?
Hahaha , i really dont know how to talk to them first :X
I think I appear to be kinda quiet ?

But actually , if you know the real me ..
=.=

I'M CRAZY&I LOVE PURPLE :D
HAHAHAHA .
Okay , shall go do econs tutorial !

OHYA !
Today's PE only ran 2 rounds ! ^^v
HENG SIA .
Wonder if I should go downstairs to the gym and train later :X
But idw to go alone ley . ):

You know , I have the urge to say thank you to every teacher after that class dismisses .
But it feels very weird to do so ley :S

Shall go bathe now ! :D

Country A ! xD

2011-02-16T20:13:00.002+08:00

Today econs was damn fun !
&For the sake of completing maths tutorials , I sacrificed my recess ! T_T
AHH , maths is so freaking hard D:

But had lunch with spencer and cheri !
HAHAHA , chatted abit .
Then went for shooting trials ! :D
Second round did better than the first !
The 4 rounds around the track is making me half dead alr .
Seriously , HOW AM I GOING TO PASS MY 2.4km RUN LIKE THAT ! T_T

Hope I get into shooting !
Shoot Shoot !
If not I shall go for the trial for Table Tennis tmr !
Hehehehe , last resort ; CHESS CLUB !

I think chess club is super interesting !
Though alot of ppl dont think so =.=
Many think its boring , okay I'm probably weird .
But .. I still like it ^^

Hehehe , spencer should join with meeee ~
6 plus then left schooooool ~
Hahaha , need to train for my 2.4km this weekend !
Coz diagnostic test for Pe is probably on Monday D:

Screwed ttm alr .
Lalalala , tmr got PE .
Kinda worried .
LOL , will they ask us to run 2.4km ? :O
OhnoOhno .

I shall go attempt the tutorials nowz !
ZzZzZz
Hehehe .

Tutorials ?

2011-02-15T16:21:00.003+08:00

OMG , I'm so tired almost everyday !
&Its only Tuesday now ! :O

Today had the total defence thing , LOL .
It was kinda cool , kinda interesting in a way .
But this is the first time I'm glad I'm not a boy .
LOL .

I'm damn tired =.=
zzZZzz
Tmr ends school at 130pm !
But the thing is , we have CCA -.-
3pm to 6pm !
SHOOTING HERE I COMEEEEEE !
LET ME IN PLEASE !
&Oh , I need to train for my 2.4km sia ! D:

I'm so screwed , pray for me to pass the diagnostic test next week !
LOL , COME ON RESILIENCE AND TOLERANCE !
I know you can do it !
HOHOHO .

TUTORIALS IS SO HARD T_T
OMG , its like basic stuff , but I feel like IDK how to do .
:O
I think I'm in deep shit .

Today got our PW groups for the mini project .
Omgomgomg , I'm kinda worried actually :X
I hope we'll all be able to get along uh ?

I can alr feel the distance between me and my OG friends .
Ohno ohno ):
Argh !
I'm so constantly hungry at school .
However , when I'm at home , I always lose my appetite .
LOL , feel so trapped .

Let's hope I can finish all my tutorials today ! ^^
Shall go and bathe then get started ! XP

Happy Vday ?

2011-02-14T18:38:00.002+08:00

Hahaha , today seems like a normal day alright !
&An official start of class !
Ended class at 430pm !

Was damn tired !
Hahaha , all because of PE !
OMGOMGOMG , I'm SOO gonna die !
I super hope that I can pass the diagnostic test next weeeeeeeeek please ! :S

Overall , I think my class is pretty okay .
Just not much interactions .
They should have ice-breakers !
HAHAHA .

I'm so tired .
I wanna sleeeeeeeep .

I shall try blogging again (:

2011-02-13T22:46:00.002+08:00

Tmr is the official start of JC life !
I'm pretty scared .
So many stuff I dont understand :X

My new class ; 11S16 .
Consist of 23 ppl with 8 girls .
Hahaha , what can I say ?
Hope we all get along well .

Tests and homeworks !
I hope I can cope with them !
If not I'm so screwed :S

Not much breaks anymore .
Tmr ends at 430pm .
&Its valentine's day !
LOL , I feel damn old .

I'm alr feeling the stress .
Hahhaha , kinda tired .

When I was finally closer to my group ppl ,
I got my new class .
Now we are separated again D:

Hope I get into shooting as well !
Wish me luck !
If not , I'll be going to the chess club !
HAHAHA .
:D

Desperate ?

2011-02-13T01:04:00.002+08:00

Why are all the guys like that ?
I'm totally sick and tired of such things .
Argh !

First was this malaysian guy I met at work .
Then now ?
I met this bunch of guys playing poker cards downstairs .
When they were leaving one of them ask for my number .
Well , I didnt give .
Instead I asked , "what for ? "
He said , " Make friends lor "
Okay , fine .
I didnt know what to say either .
So .. I GAVE HIM MY FB .

After that , online chat .
He gave me his number , and asked me to sms him .
Well , I didnt .
I didnt like sms-ing strangers .

Soon , I found out he bet with his friends that he could get my number .
See ?
WHY MUST GUYS BE LIKE THAT RIGHT ?
That is not the worst .
After that , he said something damn grossed .
He say that I should give him a chance to love me and take care of me .
(BTW , He didnt phrase it so nicely . )
Its like WTF ?
I said I would rather concentrate on studies right now ,
then he said . "I will wait for you "
OMFG , HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN ME ?
1 hour or so ?

WHAT IS THIS ?
OMG , its making me faint .
Seriously , how can such words just be typed out so easily ?
I think he's just desperate for a valentine partner .

&Then he tries to make me feel bad .
Cry all you want , I dont wanna care anymore .

I hope I dont see him in future downstairs .
It'll be my turn to cry .
CRY FOR HELP .
=.=

Sick and tired of guys like that .

Daddy ?

2011-02-06T00:47:00.002+08:00

Can you still hear me ?
I dont know if you can .

Today you gave me a lecture .
That explains why you were so cold , so weird towards me the past few days or is it weeks ?

I dont know .
You said I was always sleeping at the houses I visited during CNY .
~Well , I was tired .
You know , but you didnt know how to account for my actions because when those relatives ask you ,
you couldnt say its because I stayed up late at night playing the computer right ?
They thought I was busy studying .
So you were made the bad guy .
You said that I was happy going out with my friends , that I dont sleep in my friend's house when I go visiting them during CNY .
~Well , you were right again .
You said that no matter I like CNY or not I should still 'guo nian' .
~yeah I did , just the way you didnt like it .

You said , I was more 'active' than my sister in terms of socializing .
~well , you might be right .
So I should talk more instead of giving 1 word answers to my relatives when they strike a conversation with me .
~well , they asked me a one word question .
~&For your additional information when I went to one of my friend's house today I didnt talk to them too .

You said , If I dont like to go to my relatives' house then dont go .
~well , aint you contradicting yourself ? (refer to the should still 'guo nian')
You said I shouldnt tell you how much I enjoyed going out with my friends when all I do is give sian-ed face/ sleep / give one word answers to my relatives when I go visiting .
~oh WOW , I didnt know you listened . I was talking to my sist .

I didnt give black face during CNY .
I really didnt , I didnt show attitude .
I KNOW I DIDNT .
Because I'm not that kind of person .
But I think I'm probably that kind of person in your eyes I suppose ?

The last time we quarreled , you said you'll never be the one to cause my tears again .
So , what's your explanation now ?

Nevertheless , I'm still glad you took time to talk to me .
It just shows you havent gave up on me yet right ?
I like to believe that .

I just dont like it that , this is the only way we can communicate .
It has been long since we last talk .
I loved talking to you , I loved hearing your stories .
I loved telling you my troubles and problems and listening to your advice .
I loved listening to you analyzing and solving my problems one by one .
I loved laughing and joking with you .
I loved crying out my heart to you , because I know you'll be there .

But , are you still there ?
You cant seem to hear me anymore .
I guess I'm not daddy's girl anymore .
I really didnt expect things to turn out this way .
However , I am getting used to this .
Soon , I'll be numb .
&I will become a strong girl without your help .

I want to communicate with you ,
but you only want me to listen to you .
You dont listen anymore .
I cant believe this is the only way we can communicate now .

I'm sick and tired of all these tears .
It's been so long since I've cried .
You said you'll take away everything I have if I continue on .
I know you can , &I know you will .

So , I'll change .
I will change to become someone YOU want me to be .
So dont regret after that .

Yesyes , you didnt ill-treat me .
Instead , you treat me veryvery well .
I'm so much more lucky than other girls out there .
You always ask me to ask myself , "Did you ever make me suffer ?"
Well , if you say physically I will say never .
As for mentally , I'm not very sure about that .

No more daddy's girl .
I dont want to be your "darling" ,
I dont want you to hug me ,
when all you want is the attention of your darling Joey .

There's still so much more I wanna say .
But I cant express all of them in words .
There's so much I wanna say to you ,
but are you willing to listen ?
Or will you take it as a sign of rebelling ?
I dont know what to say to you anymore .
So I guess the only thing I can do is to listen to you and keep my mouth shut .

You said you were DISAPPOINTED in me .
`well , SO AM I .

I'm Back !

2011-01-28T20:13:00.003+08:00

Okay ! SUPER DAMN LONG NEVER UPDATE LOL .
Totally forgotten about this blog ! xD

Shall update now since I've time .
Quite alot of things had happened over the few months .
ALOT OF PROBLEMS AS WELL .

But I guess , overall I did enjoy my holidays (:

O level results was kinda surprising though I had no reaction or emotion .
HAHAHA , I didnt feel scared , probably excited ?
Didnt expect to do as well as this .
L1R5 = 12 raw
L1R4 = 8 raw

ZAI ONLY RIGHT !
LOL .
tsktsk , got into TPJC !
My 3rd choice though .

But I guess its still pretty okay .
Hope I can make more good friends soon eh ?
Hahaha , hope my time there will be enjoyable .
Its like starting all over in a new school .

Hmm , I wonder how much I've changed ?
Anyway , I'm almost 17 .
&YES , I feel freaking old .
I was chatting with Cheri today , and we both feel old .

Its like I've not done alot , and time passes so fast !
):
I dont know if its a good thing though .
HAHA , anyway orientation was kinda boring .
We were quite unlucky because of the stupid rain ! >.<

Needa submit my subject combination soon .
I wanna take bio , but its useless .
Chem more useful but I DONT LIKE IT D:<

Ohnoooo ~~~ ):

I still feel kinda strange though .
I'm still like living in my own fantasy world .
Everything seems so surreal .

Its like living in denial mode .
LOL .

Currently I'm into Anthony Neely .
Today's his autograph session & I couldnt make it .
SAD ?
Just like what happened to DANSON's A/S when I was in sec 1 ! ):
Is this a sign ?

Oh well , I guess , we aint fated to meet .

&Oh ! I'm still super into Purple ! <3
I've got a purple slipper !
A purple Bag !
A purple new shoe for JC !
A purple wallet !
A purple spects !
Manymany purple shirts !

Hehehe , awesome yeah ?

A new year has started , and everyone's going separate ways .
I guess its the end , we might not meet one another again will we ?
Its sad I guess , because many of them were there for me .

I wanna thank them .
I WANNA THANK ZURHAIRI BIN ZOHREEN (:
MY ONE AND ONLY BCF ! <3
He's the best guy to go to whenever you need a laugh I swear !
Though recently we didnt talk much , probably due to many reasons like work ,
and JC has now even started for me .
But I'll remember him , THE ZURHAIRI that has always been there when I need him !

I wanna thank Chue Kai Hoe !
MY BELOVED TWINNNNIE ! <3
Seriously , he might talk nonsense sometimes , but I feel much better every time I hang up the phone .
He's truly AWESOME , &I love his courage to pursue what he really wants .
HOPE YOU REALLY GET INTO MJC NEXT YEAR !
I will miss you , we must really go out another time alright !

I wanna thank Felicia Lim Ai Lin !
My understanding wife (2nd) ! <3
I can always count on her !
Reliable and logical !
Whenever I have problems , she instantly starts solving it !
Hahahaha , I'm very lucky to have met her !

I wanna thank Johanna Chan Yi Xin !
My lovely daughter ! <3
Though she might not know every of my problems ,
she will always stand by me .
GIVING ME MORAL SUPPORT .
I cant thank her enough for that !
It always touches my heart though I dont show it .
HAHAHAA XD

I wanna thank Subhadra D/O Ganesan !
My precious daughter ! <3
I can always talk to her ! I LOVE WALKING HOME WITH HER FROM SCHOOL :D
Its super enjoyable !
HAHAHA , an awesome listener ! ^^

I wanna thank Jessica Naomi Heng Hui Xian !
MY EVIL SON ! LOL . <3
She brings colours to my life , LITERALLY LOL .
But so evil one ! Dont want help me do manicure ! ):
HMPH !
Hehehehe , But i love her manga recommendations and her nevertheless !

I wanna thank all of those retards that always stood by me .
I LOVE THEM TO THE MAX OKAY ! <3
I hope we can still keep in contact in future !

Next I wanna thank LOHMANXIN !
MY SUPER DUPER UBER AWESOME BESTFRIEND I CAN EVER HAVE .
I know we confirm can keep in touch !
I love our outings out together ! <3
HAHAHA , even though you might not agree with what I decide or say .
YOU STILL SUPPORTS ME WHOLEHEARTEDLY .
Thank you for that !
I know you're always on my side (:

Not to forget LINYONGJIE !
HAHAHA , the forever Eating-My-Shit LYJ ! :D
For being able to listen to my problems anytime !
I really dont know how I will be surviving through the nights without seeing you online !
Even though I dont really wanna say ,
BUT I HAVE TO ADMIT YOU'RE THE AWESOME-EST SHIT I COULD HAVE EVER MET !

&OF COURSE ! ALL MY PRETTY WIVES AND DAUGHTERS ! <3

Jia Ning !
Let's go the hair curly thing again ! LOL .
It was damn funnnnnnn la !
I will missss you ):
Didnt manage to meet up during the holidays !

Joeyee ! (1st wife)
MY ADORABLE HULADAME WIFE !
HAHAHAHA , its always enjoyable to be with you !
Even when you complain , its so funny !
Heheheh , You're very different from others !
&We're are like like-minded souls :D

Cheri ! (5th wife ?)
Hohohoho , my super neat friend !
HAHAHA , always reliable !
Had lot of fun memories together !
Especially in girlguides ! ^^
Its always fun to have you around !
I LOVE THE POEM YOU WRITE FOR ME , though I might not grasp the whole meaning , COZ TOO CHIM AH .
LOL . xD
YAY US GOING TO THE SAME JC !

Vanessa ! (4th wife ?)
HAHAHA , DAMN FUN SITTING BESIDE YOU !
&&Then we paste all the post its encouraging ourselves !
xD Glad you scored well ! ^^
All our nonsense and stuff !
HAHAHA , and then we do all the epic and stupid things ,
ignore the guys and play tricks on them !
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUU <3

OMG THERE'S STILLL ALOT TO GO SIA T_T

I'll just list the names of the ppl I wanna thank .
HAHAHA .

Siew Han ! MY BELOVED 6th WIFE !
I LOVE IT WHEN WE SING TOGETHER AND GO CRAZY OVER DANSON'S SHUAI-NESS !
HAHAHAHA , KBOX IS AWESOME YEAHHHHHHH ! ~
OUR GOU AI ! ~~ <3
And silly jokes ! xD

Jonathan !
MY HOMEWORK BUDDY !
Hehehehe , I love your inspirational talks ! ^^

Nelson !
LOOK LIKE TEDDY SO CUTE UH !
Hahahaha , play basketball some time again ley !
hehehe .

Amos !
MY AWESOMEEE BUDDY .
Hang out again sometime !

ROYYYYYYYY !
Hahahha , MY JIANGJUN !
Always teach me what to do in situation I cannot cope or seem to understand :D
Though he is VERY VERY easily tired .
HAHAHAA .

Lindsey !
MY CUTE LITTLE TEDDYYYYYYY <3
MR BLACK BEAN LOVES YOU STILL !
Never go out with you before ):

Adora !
My nu-er uh ! :S
YOUR YANYAN !
Must go zoo together ! T_T

I wanna thank these ppl I've listed (regardless before or after) for making my life so enjoyable and meaningful .
They have each taught me alot of things :D

Jingyi !
Hahaha , remember physics tuition ?
Damn funnnnnn ! xD
Go eat swensens again !

Jeannie ! <3
MY GIRLFRIEND AHHHH !
WO AI NI O ! xD
Dont forget me after you have him hor ! >.<
Hehehehe , playful girl !
*pokes !*

Jean !
Let's go on a date sometime and make jeannie jealous!
Hehehe , let's hold hand and go walkwalk !

ChingYing !
YO GF !
MY STORY TELLER UH ! :D
Tell me bedtime story to sleep de .
Last long with him okayyyyyy !~
I WANNA SEE THE HAPPY YOU !
Open up more la !

Celeste !
A super comforting and fun friend to be arounddd ! ^^
Hehehe , and then we talk nonsenses :D

Xia Yin !
YAY FOOD HUNT !
WE MUST DO IT AGAIN OKAY ! :D

Dawnn !
My name is dusk !
Hehehe , sitting with you in class is damn fun !
Hahahah , go out together again soooon !

Yueping !
MY DANSON INFORMER !
Hahahha <3 !
AWESOME NEWS AND VIDEOS YOU PROVIDE !
NOW LEND ME YOUR IPHONE !
I wanna play speeeeed tapping ! xD

I LOVE ALL OF YOU LAAAAAAAA ~~ <3
Hope can stay in touch ! T_T

You all make up the best memories in my secondary school life !
It would have been worse than hell without you guys by my side !
I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN YOUR FUTURE !
JIAYOUU !
I SUPERSUPERSUPER MANYMANYMANY LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE YOUUUUU GUYS ~ <3

Is life really gonna get better ?

2010-09-01T18:11:00.002+08:00

Everything seems so distant now .
So far away .

Today went out with dawn , wen lin , amos , nelson and roy .
Suppose to study at library but didnt .
Too crowded .
Ate mcspicy for breakfast (;
Yummy !

After that decided to go to my house downstairs to study .
Did some maths , felt quite accomplished .
Hahahaha .

Thought back on some memories , all so far now .
I dont feel much emotions stirring inside me .

I dont know whether that's good or bad .

But many things that seems important to me in the past ,
that I cared ,
doesnt seem so important anymore .

In fact , I dont even give a damn .
I wondered what happened to me .

Shit Happens .

2010-08-29T13:38:00.002+08:00

Do I really deserve all this shit ?

I had a talk with my dad when I reached home yesterday .
He made me realised lots of things .
He made me realised I was weak .
I'm not a strong girl .

I wonder why I'm so weak .
I wonder why I didnt realise it .
I wonder why I became so weak .

Listening to his stories till late at night ,
I've never felt so relaxed in such a long time .
As the wind blows , as I listen to his voice .
Teaching me , telling me , giving me support .

I feel loved .
I feel important .

Although I might not like the things he said about me ,
I want to learn and try to accept it .
I'll be better .
I'll grow stronger .

I wont let things happen like what happened yesterday .
I've no reason to cry over such things .
I'm a fool .
If they didnt care , why the hell should I ?

Why am I torturing myself ?
I know that they're in the wrong .
Its not me .
I'm the one trying my best to help even though its not my business .
Why am I such a busybody ?
I shouldnt have cared !

They didnt even include me in the first place .
They didnt think of me even when they walked out of the door .

You said you forgot ,
but it feels more like you're using me .
You're just feigning it aint you ?

Why should I let myself get hurt by your words ?
I'm just plain stupid .

But believe me , I didnt regret what I did .
For being so stupid , but I'll learn .

I'll take the fall , and stand right up .
Because you were wrong from the very start ,
No matter what you do later on , it'll just piss me off .

I'm glad this happen , because this way I'll learn .

No , I dont deserve this shit .
Therefore , I'm not gonna tolerate this shit again .
Next time , I'll make sure you eat it .

Reasons ;

2010-08-27T16:05:00.003+08:00

Because everything happens for a reason ,
But we would be far too busy if we have to find that reason whenever something happens .

Everyone , we are all humans .
We all make mistakes .
The most important thing is that we learn from it .

I've learnt many things .
Although we all do not wish to be hurt ,
it might be good to experience the hurt first .
This way , you would avoid it at all cost .

I like to count my lucky stars .
I like to tell myself how lucky I am .
I like to think how lucky I must be to be who I am .

But sometimes , Life just doesnt work this way .
It makes me feel lonely .
It makes me feel unwanted .
It makes me feel sad .
It makes me feel that there's no meaning in life .

Eating is suppose to be enjoyable .
I used to like it , yes . USED TO .
But now I dont , it seems more like a torture for me .

I'm literally floating through my life .
Nothing really matters that much .
I dont have a goal .
I have nothing .
No plans at all .

It's like I have to force myself to live through everyday of my life .
I need a reason to carry on living .

A Lesson ,

2010-08-27T16:02:00.002+08:00

I've learnt from this lesson .
I'm dont know whether to be glad I didnt get tricked .
Lucky I didnt follow my heart ,
I guess following the head is still a better choice now .

Now I know , if you are hesitant , unsure ..
Dont take the risk .
It aint worth it .

(:
I'm glad its kinda over .
I cant stand this drama myself .
I rather sit and watch .

I'm back to my normal days .
All those memories are so faint and distant now , C:

Hohoho , its finally over (;

2010-07-16T17:48:00.002+08:00

I'm so glad !
The feeling is so super fading away mannnnnn .
tsktsktsk .

Went home alone .
Weather was good .
I kinda like it , except that my shoes are soaked .

Books are good distractions indeed (;
I love to read .
Yes I do !

Now , all I have to do is to control that urge .
&Everything will be fine .
Everything will be back to normal .

Although I feel weird now .
I hope something good happen soon enough to keep me busy .
So I wouldnt have time to think about such stuff .

^^
Ching Ying says SHE'S GOT DANSON'S ALBUM !
YESSSSSSS !
OMG !
<3
THANKYOUUUUU !
I can get in on Monday le yo !
;D

DANSONISM YO ! *winks*

HAPPYHAPPY :D

2010-07-12T20:31:00.002+08:00

YAY !
I've finally got Danson's album today !
Thank you Amos&Roy !

Not to forget !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 15th JOELLE !
:D

Heeeeeheeeee .
Happy post yo !
I love surprises !

The way Amos gave me the Present was damn creative !
;Created by Roy btw .

A: "Hey , I think you left something of yours in my bag . :D"
[I was thinking , really ?]
*opens bag*
:O <- Saw danson's ALBUM !
J: "OMG ! THANK YOU ~"

But he never hear the Thankyou .
=.=
HAHAHAHA .
But still .
AWESOMEEEEEEEEE :D

HEHEHEHEHE .
Now needa wait for the TOUCH VERSION !
Cant wait to get my hands on that !

&&I WOULD LIKE TO THANK ZURHAIRI FOR HIS JOKES !
^^
HE'S ALWAYS THERE WITH HIS JOKES WHENEVER I'M SAD (:
THANK YOU BCF ! <3

&&&LASTLY , I HOPE THAT LYJ WONT BE SO SAD ANYMORE !
DONT EMOOOOOOOOOOO ):
DONT GIVE UP !
I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT !
JIAYOUUUUUU !
ASK ALL THOSE BADBAD THOUGHTS TO GO EMS ! ;D

Hello ):

2010-07-11T14:05:00.001+08:00

Here I am again ..
I dont know why I'm feeling like that !
AHHHHHHHH ):

What should I do ?
I wanna forget forget forget .
I dont want to think anymore .

I'm tired .
Leave me in peace .

Hello .

2010-07-09T19:32:00.001+08:00

I realise , I only blog when I'm sad .
):

Okay , so I'm sad now .

Confused like shit ):

2010-07-06T21:37:00.002+08:00

What should I do ?
I think I've fallen too deep .

I cant believe , why do I believe ?
Why do I even hope ?

I know I can't , I cannot have it .
I'm not ready .
I dont know what to do .

I just keep thinking and thinking .
I have to resist the urge .

I fantasize , I imagine , I dream .
I look , I feel , I wonder .

I ask myself , but I dont know the answer ..

Let's do this together YJ ~
I'm sure we can both do it !
Even though I dont think you'll see this .
But I still want to thankyou ! (:
YOU'REMYSUPERAWESOMEFRIEND^^

THANK YOU RETARDS !

2010-06-11T00:34:00.002+08:00

FIRST , I WOULD LIKE TO THANK KAI HOE !
MY ANGEL GER GER TWINNNNIE !
HAHAHHAA , HE IS SO FREAKING CHIOOOOOOOOOOO OKAY !
;D

HE DID THIS POST SPECIALLY FOR ME !
I'M SO TOUCHED !
ITS SO FREAKING NICE !
^^
ITS WONDERFUL !
FANTASTIC !
AWESOME !
MAGNIFICENT !
MAJESTIC !
STUNNING !
IMPRESSIVE !
SUPERB !
MARVELOUS !

HAHAHAH , I LOVEEE YOU MAN !
I LOVE CHUE KAI HOE ! ;D

I LOVE SUBHADRAAAA !
I LOVE JOHANNACHANYIXINNNN !
I LOVE FELICIALIMAILINNNNN !
I LOVE JESSICANAOMIHENGHUIXIANNN !
;D

LOVEYOUGUYS ! <3>

REALLY REALLY THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU GUYS HAVE DONE FOR ME IN THE PAST (:
&MANYMANY+MILLION+BILLION+ZILLIONS OF THANKS TO TWINNNNY FOR PUTTING SO MUCH EFFORT !

我爱死你了！

Really much check out the pictures , he's SO CUTE ~ (:
KAWAII ! ^^

When you turn around to look at me , I'm sure we'll both be smiling .

2010-06-02T22:24:00.002+08:00

I felt slightly happier today (:
No idea why .

Is it because I decided it ?
Or because I saw JOE YEE ?! :D

Hahah , dont really know .
But it carried on all the way till tuition !
That's great .

At least , I can still go back to the old happy hyper me .
Today talk with Lindsey and Dawn was super funny and fun ! :D
In tuition super noisy with Felicia ! xD

USUI IS SUPER CUTE !
I WANT A BOYFRIEND LIKE HIM ! :D

My pride spilled on the floor , My hands and knees are bruised .

2010-06-01T21:29:00.002+08:00

Heyyyyy .
*hearsechos*
oh yeah , there probably isnt anyone here anymore .

Yesterday was my Number 1 best friend's birthday !
Loh Man Xin ! <3
She's really special !
Even up till now , though we dont talk much .

I miss all my best friends .
The primary school days we used to have .
During class , lessons , cca .
Computer club ! Art ! Netball !

I thought leaving primary school will make my life more exciting as I meet new people .
Oh indeed , it did happened .
But what I didnt know was , it all comes with a price .

A price I'm now struggling to pay for .
All my happiness I've got , I've got to pay back NOW .
Happier you get to feel , the opposites are gonna be JUST AS good/bad .

Cause every little thing you do , JUST PISSES ME OFF .

Its not like I can control how I feel .
I'm alr holding back all my emotions .
I dont wanna show anger , annoyance or frustration .
I dont wanna make you guys feel left out .

Thinking back , am I more sensitive now or what ?

Friends wait for each other .
I dont used to , but I start to now .
But you dont anymore .
No more , too late ?
Or such things ain't important ?

The world is confusing me .
You might think , " Open your mouth and ask la ! Why keep it to yourself ? Friends what , should voice out what you think and say it ."
I agree , say it RIGHT SMACK IN YOUR FACE .
Tell you how irritating it is when you raise your voice and talk .
Tell you how much I dislike it when you ask me , " You ready to go ?"
When I'm standing outside WAITING for you .
Tell you how much I hate it when you start complaining "She's gonna ignore us."
But when I'm alone , you dont talk or bother me when I read my book .
Tell you how much I detest it , when I talk halfway and you get distracted .
It's as if the whole conversation never existed .
Tell you how much I abhor it , when you cover your answers as though afraid that I'll copy it .
Even if I ask you , you'll shrug it off with a " Ask teacher la ."
Tell you how much I hope you'll see that everything's wrong with me .
I'm not just tired .

How I WISH I can tell you everything , everything that I want .
Without leaving myself insecure after that , without doubting whether I can trust you to keep it as a secret .

I can feel our distance between us gradually increasing .
I cant help it .
You dont seem to notice , but I do .

Ever wonder why I find him whenever I'm feeling sad instead of you ?
Ever wonder why I share all my joy with him instead of you ?
Ever wonder why I gossip with him instead of you ?
Ever wonder why I'm feeling better even after spending just a short moment with him ?

Do I not care about you ?
Maybe not enough .

Best friends , are we really best friends ?
We seem more like normal friends .

It really takes opportunity to know someone , not time .

You know how I longed to be free ?
Because I'm feeling like a bird trapped in a cage .
I wanna escape , but where do I go ?
I've spent all my time with you , after leaving you where do I go ?

Is it really just me ?
BELTYDPMO.

Sorry , but I dont think I can last any much longer .
I'm still human if you forgot , I do have emotions even though I dont show them .

Hello, let me know if you hear me
Hello, if you want to be near
Let me know
And I'll never let you go

"I'm tired."

Ups & Downs

2010-05-18T20:11:00.002+08:00

I finally finished my book .
The Truth About Forever .

Really a nice book .
I didnt have time read it during the exam period .
After reading it in the club house , I felt totally relaxed .
Damn long since I felt like that .
(:
Probably because I walked home today .
Hmm .

Whenever I think the day could get WORSE , it just gets BETTER .
&Of course OPPOSITE happens .

Unpredictable life .
So the best thing is seriously to NOT predict .
AH !
Not predict then it might happen !
No expectations No disappointment !
No one gets hurt !
(:
Fantastic isnt it ?

But its hard not to think about what might happen next .
So I can only focus on the bad .
Teehee .

But still results suck .
Guess its getting worse as I grow older .
I feel very old , I dont know why .

Its like my memory is slowly getting worse and I cant understand people well .
Everything's just getting worse .
What can I expect ?

A CHARMING WHITE PRINCE ON A WHITE HORSE COMING TO SAVE ME ?

LOL .
It might even turn out to be a BLACK PRINCE ON A BLACK HORSE .
&Probably not charming , NOR coming to save me .
Perhaps TORTURE me .

OUCH .

I'm learning more and more about life , through books , people and experience .
I feel that I'm sinking in deeper and deeper into my own world .

I wouldnt believe I will become such a person given years ago .
But still , IT happened .

I feel like I'm building a wall around me .
Closing myself .
Because being exposed to the cruel world I'm facing have left me many scars .
Many lessons I've learnt .
I felt like I needed protection .

Because people that come near me dont necessarily mean good .
&Rarely good people do .
They all have a purpose , a purpose I dont know .
I dont like being used .

Who likes that feeling anyway ?

I used to think its easy to be happy .
I can easily achieve that .

But now , its hard .
I get pissed off over little things .
I know its LITTLE , but it still PISSES ME OFF .

I know I'm not suppose to do this , but I do it anyway .
Its like I dont care anymore .
I dont know why , I'm not scared anymore .
Not afraid , no more fear .

I've lost that feeling ever since I entered secondary school life .
Its more like expecting disappointment everytime you do something .

Its frustrating .
I feel like I'm gonna explode someday .
I dont voice out anymore , because its not use .
I dont stand up for people , because it wouldnt help that person anyway , it'll probably make it worse since I'M the only one standing up for him/her .
It sucks .

It sucks to be left out .
It sucks to know that there's a problem , but you dont know how to solve it .
It totally sucks when you feel like nobody cares .

When I say out my problems to people , they just ignore .
I dont know why , I mean I wouldnt do that to others .
I'm easily affected by others you know .
People do that often to me , soon I'll follow it unknowingly .
&I'll become a person I HATE TO BE , that I DONT WANT TO BECOME .
Its scary .

Did they ignore because they cant solve it ?
Or they dont give a damn about it ?
Or they think its such a minor problem that it isnt worth mentioning ?

Please dont ignore me .
I feel helpless .

Break DOWN .

2010-04-29T18:52:00.002+08:00

Today is the first time I break down in school like this .
Seriously , I was damn pissed .
How can you guys raise my hopes like this and then dash it like shit ?

OMG .
I dont blame you guys .
I blame myself for not counting .
For focusing too much on the detail than on the big picture .
19.20 min .
WTF .

I didnt stop .
Even if i did , its only for the WIDTH of the Freaking Field .

Did I run extra you tell me ?
I DONT KNOW .

I just felt so bloody angry , I couldnt stop grasping for air and crying .
I felt numb all over .
I never felt like this before .

maybe I'm under too much stress .
I dont feel prepared for anything .

I felt so helpless .
Like nobody cares .
I have no supporters .

You dont understand .
I dont blame anyone .
It doesnt matter whether i failed or not .

It matters because I tried my best .
&I didnt manage to do it even though I expected it .
I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN .
Yes , I SHOULD HAVE .

I thought , maybe I could do it .
I PUSHED MYSELF .
But what ?
You guys are so freaking unsure .

&Now the teacher's gonna tell me its a trial run ?
WTF ?

Want me to run again ?
I was so freaking angry when they told me I have 1 more extra round .
So ?
I dashed like mad .
Crying , full of anger .
I never expect myself to be like that .
I didnt felt tired .
All of the sudden my legs have energy .
Have the strength to sprint .

I dont know what happened .
But fact that I HEARD , well i'm stupid for believing it .

I cannot trust anyone except myself .
Therefore I cannot blame anyone .
Its my fault for trusting in the first place .

I dont know whether I'll get the motivation to run again .

Thank you Felicia and Subha for being there .
Yueping , Jeannie , Cheri , Jing yi .
Even a simple "are you okay ?" shows that you care .

At least I'm not all alone .
Though I feel alone .

I always thought that people cried over such stuff and silly and stupid .
What for cry ?
Now I know , finally realised how I felt .

All the emotions just GUSHED through .
Couldnt breathe .
Its merely the last straw that led to all this .
I wasnt the main cause .

Screw-ed Screw-ed Friday !

2010-04-23T20:33:00.002+08:00

Damn this unlucky year !
This is a super unlucky year for dogs as said during chinese new year .
I read the board at ws and west plaza know !
OMG LA .

Really true.
D:
Like freaking dead .

ENGLISH ORALLLLL !
BIOLOGY SPAAAA !
ENGLISH TEST !
MY WHOLE SEC SCHOOL LIFE .

I offend almost all the teachers .
Slack like siao .
Damn this life .

But cca today , OUR VERY LAST .
Was very enjoyable .

Although I didnt cry D:
They say I 没良心 .
OKAY WHATEVER !
Hahahah .

I'm quite happy la .
In the end .
Hahahaa , so cool .
Sit with joeyee on the bus home (:
First time :D
This is very memorable .
:D

Thanks alot juniors !：Ｄ
我爱你们！
Ａｉｓｈｉｔｅｒｕ　！;D
Sarang Hae Yo!

Okay my other language not so good la .
lol , might be wrong for all you know :D

I'm damn tired .
I　ｄｏｎｔ　ｗｉｓｈ　ｔｏ　ｆｏｒｇｅｔ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｄａｙ　ｔｈｏｕｇｈ　；Ｄ

Invisible .

2010-04-19T21:02:00.000+08:00

Not transparent today .
Partially .
:D

Nice weather .

Pampered .

2010-04-15T23:17:00.002+08:00

I think i'm pampered and have been showered with too much love from my parents .
I would probably wouldnt want to be pampered in the first place .
IF you're gonna take it away from me now , please dont give it to me the first place .
Because I will crave for it , and that only makes me feel more terrible than I'm feeling now .

It's hurting me .
Everything , even when he does not do anything .
WHY ?
I've never felt like this before .
You made me love you by loving me so much more .
&Now you've stopped loving me .
But I cant change it anymore .

I dont know what I am to you .
It seems like you dont even give a damn .
So what do you expect me to do ?

I dont know how to react to what you do .
Whatever you do , or EVEN when you do nothing makes me wanna cry .

I cant control my tears when it comes to you .
Why is that so ?
Why must it be you of all people ?
Why must you change ?

You weren't like this before she was born .

I wish that I could BELIEVE .

2010-04-08T20:35:00.002+08:00

I've always thought , being a teenager would be filled with lots of joy&fun .
Apparently , it comes with a price .
A price I thought I could afford but I couldnt .

I've got myself in this mess .
&Its my own fault .
I could have gotten out of it .
But I didnt want to ,
I didnt want to lose it .
Yet , I can't afford it .

I dont know what to do .
I'm trapped in between .
Just like Geography , should countries recieve foreign help ?
Receive might get better and improve , but it can also get worse .
Yet , its a source of HOPE .

I dont know anymore , maybe I dont want to .

I dont know what to feel .
But I've come to appreciate every LITTLE thing someone does for me .
Because it meant so much .
I never would have thought of it if it was a younger Jolin .

I wonder if its good or bad .

Anyway , today got caught for reading book when announcements were made .
Need write reflection .
Was quite pissed at the start , but not anymore .

Today was quite fun and happy .
(:
At least , so much better than the other days .

Geog hw was hell .
The class was hell , so are the ____ .

I love disturbing young kids !

2010-03-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

On friday (:
We went to kopitiam to eat before cca !
We ; Cheri , Jingyi , Joeyee and ME !

Hahaha , It was a funny and hilarious journey ^^
Had lots of funnnnnn !
First , I saw this small guy outside the kopitiam doing some weird thing .
Forget what , then I mimick him .
He paiseh !
HAHAHA , so cute .

Then after that we sat down and order food le ,
I talked to the small primary school girl sitting behind me :D

Me ; You primary what ? I from your school one ley ^^
She ; Mummy say , I cannot talk to strangers . ;D
Me ; Eh ! I not stranger okay ! I'm your senior !

Hahahah !
Then the mother come with black face .
So never talk liao .
Suddenly ...
JOEYEE SPOTTED HER AH GONG !
LOL .

Her grandfather damnnnnnnnnnn CUTE SIA !
Hahahah .
Somemore the Npcc guys sit beside nia .
Super funny the look they give when we call Joeyee go and greet her grandpa .
xD

Todayyyyy !~ ;DD

Went for bio lessons in the morning .
Hahaha, late lor .
Overslept xD .

Then after bio went to play basketball with amos and two other juniors .
LOL , KENNA OWNED BY THEM .
They only sec 2 , and both shorter than me .
Like that also can lose !
=.=

Amos is like a CLOWN LA !
Can go join circus liao !
LOL , we no threat to them at all !
Seriously =.=
No need to mark us .
Can just dribble the ball pass them .
Hahaha .

Then went to eat breakfast ~~
After that went downstairs to do homework :D
Damn noisy , but spotted this shuai guy .
He's working as those property agent !
Hahaha .
Okay ENOUGH !

I still think the Jacob lookalike I saw is more HOT !
*screams*

Went to Compass Point for dinner !
:D
Awesome .
Ate chicken chop ( latest fav-ed foood ) !

Went to Metroooo ~
I've got good taste .
Clothes that caught my eye are always DAMN expensive .
LOL , I need rich man :D

Anyway , went to the toys section .
That's where the REAL fun starts !
^^
Saw this guy ; My sis say he's a potential NCC .
He's quite plump but CUTE :D
He held this toy gun , and pointed at me !
OMG OMG OMG what should I do ?
LOL , so I ...
Of course I DIDNT SURRENDER !
LOL , i shoot him with my hand !
HOHOHO , then worst case senario !

He ran out with the gun after me !
LOL .
Run around and around ! (exercising)
Then suddenly he's gone .
WOOHOO !.

Hahaha , epic .
Then out of nowhere he appeared again !
So i faster grab a gun and shoot him .

LOL , then he say
" You never reload ! How to shoot ?"

Omg , he so smart . LOL .
But the problem is I dont know how to reload .

So I went ,
"I dont know how to reload ma ! "

I continued running .
He tried chasing me .
LOL , then lost me :D
Too pro . (bhb)
LOL .

Okay la , its damn fun can .
:D
I made a small boy paiseh at the kopitiam today too .
He was playing with a purple ballooon <3

Tsk tsk .
Great day uh .
FULL OF NAUGHTY KIDS !
WOOOOOOO ~

Totally love kids now .
HOHOHO .

DELLO ! 只要唐禹哲还在微笑这个世界就不算太糟 ! ^^v

2010-03-26T22:12:00.002+08:00

I realised lots of things this few months .
Maybe I'm MATURING .
Aww , isnt that cool ?

But it isnt that fun afterall .
I mean , I would rather stay childish .
Hohoho , you can have fun and laugh like nothing matters .
Things wouldnt hurt as much as it would now then before .

Its like when I finally decides to give up .
The hope comes again , I turn back , &I get SMASHED .
KICKED DOWN & CRUSHED again .
I hate this feeling seriously .

Learn from your mistakes JTYJ !
ARGHHHH ! .

I feel invisible , therefore shall dedicate this song to myself :D

Anyway , NOBODY READS MY BLOG !
Hahahaha , they must have think its dead .
OR its BORING ^^
Actually its okay alr , dont really mind .
I just wanna look back someday and find myself laughing at the current me .
Why I'm being so stupid and feeling this way .
HAHAHHA .

I dont want to say bad TRUE facts about people anymore .
It totally sucks .
I feel all guilty and mad .
I mean , wouldnt that make what I say ME ?

Sometimes when you say things out , you see a clearer and better picture .
&the feelings you feel get STRONGER .
There's good and bad .

I feel LEFT OUT .
&Well , that's the pathetic truth .

I'm not a very good speaker am I ?
Not that entertaining , not worth your attention .
They , He , She more interesting and worth your time listening right ?

Its alright , its okay .
I guess , I must have talked to you out of boredom .
Oh no , you dont have to mind me .
Yeah , its okay . ^^
I'll get used to it .

I've became best friends with time (;
&It has better qualities than you .
Learn from it .

透明人

你只说爱久会疲倦会改变
ni zhi shuo ai jiu hui pi juan hui gai bian
就转开双眼要冷却要离别
jiu zhuan kai shuang yan yao leng que yao li bie
忽略~ 我的感觉
hu lue wo de gan jue
忽略~ 这几年
hu lue zhe ji nian

掏心的情感被扯断被踩碎
tao xin de qing gan bei che duan bei cai sui
传简讯但你没表情没有回
chuan jian xun dan ni mei biao qing mei you hui
隔绝~ 我的想念
ge jue wo de xiang nian
隔绝~ 像求救那行泪
ge jue xiang qiu jiu na heng lei

Chorus:
透明人痛得撕裂~
tou ming ren tong de si lie
透明人痛成残缺
tou ming ren tong cheng can que
透明人再痛你看不见~
tou ming ren zai tong ni kan bu jian
像个影子
xiang ge ying zi
仆在大街前
pu zai da jie qian
被谁的鞋踏成雪
bei shei de xie ta cheng xue

掏心的情感被扯断被踩碎
tao xin de qing gan bei che duan bei cai sui
传简讯但你没表情没有回
chuan jian xun dan ni mei biao qing mei you hui
隔绝~ 我的想念
ge jue wo de xiang nian
隔绝~ 像求救那行泪
ge jue xiang qiu jiu na heng lei

Repeat Chorus

要呐喊什么样的歌
yao na han shen me yang de ge
才能勉强撑另一夜
cai neng mian qiang cheng ling yi ye
忘记我几天没有睡~~
wang ji wo ji tian mei you shui
疲惫, 崩溃
pi bei beng kui
像灵魂腐坏的人类
xiang ling hun fu huai de ren lei

透明人痛得撕裂~
tou ming ren tong de si lie
透明人痛成残缺
tou ming ren tong cheng can que
透明人再痛你看不见~
tou ming ren zai tong ni kan bu jian
像片落叶
xiang pian luo ye
要飞吻告别
yao fei wen gao bie
但风一吹
dan feng yi chui
飘得太远
piao de tai yuan

I WILL SURVIVE !

Lose it all .

2010-03-21T01:20:00.001+08:00

Oh, no

Take what you need
Cause I can't hold my breath
Say what you feel
Cause I've got nothing left, oh

I made a promise to myself last night
I'm gonna keep it if it's wrong or right

Chorus:
And if I lose it all
There'd be nothing left to lose
And I would take the fall
Cause knowing you are out there
Breathing is so wonderful
It's a chance, I'd take even if I break
And I lose it all
If I lose it all

Would it matter anyway
Don't change a thing
You're perfect as you are
Time has a way
Time is all I've got

If my heart should shatter watching you
There'd be one less thing I'd have to prove

Chorus:
And if I lose it all
There'd be nothing left to lose
And I would take the fall
'Cause knowing you are out there
Breathing is so wonderful
It's a chance I'd take even if I break
And I lose it all
If I lose it all

Bridge:
Heaven will be waiting
When I fall into your open arms
I believe you'll find me there
You'll find me there

Chorus:
And if I lose it all
There'd be nothing left to lose
And I would take the fall (take the fall)
'Cause knowing you are out there
Breathing is so wonderful (yeah, yeah)
It's a chance, I'd take even if I break
And I lose it all
If I lose it all

And if I lose it all (ohh, oh, yeah)
There'd be nothing left to lose (nothin', and I would)
And I would take the fall
'Coz knowing you are out there (knowin')
Breathing is so wonderful (so wonderful)
It's a chance I'll take even if I break
And I lose it all
If I lose it all

BackstreetBoys.
Would it matter anyway?

Just want you to know .

2010-03-21T01:13:00.003+08:00

Lookin' at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do
Could protect me from you that night
Wrapped around your finger, always on my mind
The days would blend 'cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were, everything, everything to me.

Chorus:
I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
Just want you to know

All the doors are closing, I'm trying to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it's me instead
My dreams are empty from the day,
The day you slipped away

Chorus:
And I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go (oh)
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That theres a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say (yeah)
I would do it all again
Just want you to know

Bridge:
That since I lost you
I lost myself (ohhh)
No I can't fake it
There's no one else

Chorus:
So I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me (back to me)
But still I have to say (I have to say)
I would do it all again (do it all again)

I just want you to know (cuz I've been fighting)
That I've been fighting to let you go (ohh)
Some days I make it through (and then there's)
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe (yeah)
That there's a day you'll come back to me (but still)
But still I have to say (I have to say)
I would do it all again
Just want you to know

By Backstreet Boys .

Helpless .

2010-03-16T13:43:00.003+08:00

When do you ever feel helpless ?
That you wished there's someone , whoever they are to be with you .
When you dont want to be alone .
When you want someone to care about you ?
When you want someone to make you feel better ?

I think its when you're sick .
&I think I'm physically and mentally sick .

I dont know what is happening to me nowadays .
I get so emotional at times .

YET , sometimes I simply just shut down all my emotions .
I just suddenly dont care what is going all around me .
Dont bother about WTH is happening .

Why this world is so unfair ?
Why do things happen this way ?
WHY SHOULD I BE FEELING THIS WAY ?

I dont care anymore .
They used to bug me .
But now I just ignore them .
It works , trust me .

Have you ever sneezed till you cry ?
Have you ever laugh till you cry ?
Its easier to cry when you're sick .
I totally agree with that .
Because you cant breathe properly through your nose .
&You feel SUPER uncomfortable .
Then that's when you got a sorethroat because you breathe through your mouth too much .
Which isnt good .
Because you have to hold your breath whenever you eat or drink .
&you would HATE talking .

&You would hope that NOBODY TALKS to you .
Because you wouldnt want to reply .

&when you realise laughing doesnt hurt .
You laugh with all your might even though you might look like a retard .
Simply because no one gets it EXCEPT you .

Can we survive in this world without love ?
MAYBE , because everything is POSSIBLE isnt it ?
Can we survive this world without hope ?
If we stop thinking about what might happen in the future and could still live on , YES .

Well , well , well .
All these are ONLY my thoughts .
That's what I think .
&Everyone thinks differently dont they ?

I think I'm weird .
So let's just leave it that way .

Hello , Goodbye .

2010-03-05T20:59:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling so disappointed now .
Dont you feel this way whenever you feel left out of something ?
When you feel that you've been used ?
When you feel that the person whom you always liked , a friend to turn out different ?
When you feel that you no longer able to trust in a friend when you found out their true colours ?

I cant even bring myself to talk to them seriously .
Everything changed so drastically that I couldnt even believe that it would have happened , given a few months ago .

Why is the world like that ?
Why cant I find someone , who understands me better ?
Who knows how to appreciate and love what I am ?
Who does not mind telling me off when they detest something I do or say ?

I want to know what's wrong with me when you guys do that .
If you want to talk bad about me , please do it infront of me .
I wont mind , I will even listen and try to improve .
SO PLEASE , tell me what I can do better .

I feel like I'm nothing .
Nothing I say makes a difference .
Nothing I do makes an impact .

I'm really at loss of what to do .

Jello ! :D

2010-02-24T19:20:00.002+08:00

:D

Long time no blog .
Hahaha .
Dont think much people come here anyway .
I'm so hungry now .
*growls*

Oh my , I failed 2 chem test alr .
Think my report book come back my parents would be like :O
*screams*

I've been so lazy this few days .
Didnt do a single maths assignment at home .
(Yes , I did do in school =.=)
But that's not the point .

So much things have happened since last year .
Everything changed .
Friends ,
Tuition ,
Teachers ,
CCA ,
Results .

All like crap now .
Relationships are getting worse than ever .

Speech day's coming out .
I'm glad I got picked for GOH .
I will practice hard and go for it !
Its what I wanted in the first place , I will cherish my opportunity .

I know we cant avoid hardships in life .
I've straighten out my thinking , but many people still dont .
They just dont get it , even I've voice out .
What can I do ?

Tml's gonna be biology SPA .
I'm freaking out =.=

I hope I'll get an A1 for Biology .
No wait , I MUST GET AN A1 AT ALL COST .

Alright , shall go now .
Goodbye people :D

HAI PEOPLE :D

2010-02-01T17:50:00.002+08:00

HELLO !
LONG TIME NO SEE :D

Hahaha , I AM SO SLACK NOWADAYS .
I THINK I'M SO DEAD BY 'O's .

Today was a normal day la .
Bio test results totally sucked .
I dont know why .
):

Tml the sec ones are coming in !
YIPEEEEE :D
I'm so excited !
&Yeah !
I'm selling notebooks for 5 dollars each .
ITS FOR A GOOD CAUSE ! :D
SO PLEASE BUY FROM ME T.T

Sigh , I know its no use anyway .
=.=
My school people are so ....
________________
Speechless .
Shall not elaborate okay .

Oh my , cant wait to get out of this NIGHTMARE .

D:
Seeya .

Chinese Cinderella .

2010-01-16T20:26:00.002+08:00

Borrowed Chinese Cinderella from Jeannie .
Its a sad story .
):
I havent finish it , but finishing soon .
:D

This few days wasnt very happy .
Probably cant cope with school reopening .
Hahahah .

I'm kinda into

王心凌's songs (:

Like ,

當你&第一次愛的人 .

Well, you know I love sad songs :D
Its really nice and meaningful though .
Almost all her sad songs , including

我很好,那么你呢？

One of my favourites .
Hahaha .

It just makes me think of the past .
Wonderful childhood I had :D

Well , I know I'm in a super bad mood these days .
Not like I can help it .
The fire burning my heart just isnt being put out .
What can I do ?

I fell asleep yesterday at 7 while watching channel V .
All the mvs and stuff .
I love it .
Woke up at 2 am when my father came out and put a pillow on my back .
Suddenly I felt so lucky , that my father even bothered to come out and check on me .
I'm so touched .
I couldnt sleep after that .
So I went into my room and continued reading chinese cinderella .

Suddenly, he came in and asked , " You hungry ?"
Knowing that I hadnt eat my dinner because I was asleep .
I nodded and followed him out .
He bought me downstairs and order mee pok for me :D
My favourite noodle .
I feel so blessed .

Even though I remembered the time when I vomited just last year ,
he wasnt there for me .
The first time I got sick and without my parents around .
I felt pathetic , rather unwanted .
Lucky I had my sister with me .
Even though she need to go to school tml .
She stayed up with me till 2 to 3 am .
Brought me cups of water , plastic bags .
Help me throw away the bags of disgusting vomited food .

It just makes me love my sister more <3

With Joey around , was a blessing in disguise too !
Hahaha , because of her ,
We often visit places I go to when I was young ,
and I turned into a happy kid again .

I shall end it off with ,
I'M DROWNING IN HOMEWORKS !
lol .

2010-01-12T20:02:00.006+08:00

Yay !
Okay !
here's the pictures ! :D
Finally got the patience to upload .
HOHOHO .

Starting off with this !
Last day of malaysia , she doesnt wanna go home ~~
:(
Aww man ..Packing bag and walking , so cute right ?
Like penguin xD
I forgot what's she's holding .
Last moment at the hotel ~ xD
Outside first world hotel , waiting for my uncle =.=
My sister and I ! :D
Joey enjoying the rideeeee !~
JOLIN ! JOELLE ! DADDY ! <3
Water babies ?
I WANT THE PURPLE ONES ! XD
Strawberry seats with two sweeties ! :D
Having funnnnnn ~
Brave Joey ! :D
Poor horsey xD
NELSON'S !
Didnt know nelson had a shop in KL . xD
WOW ! Elva and Show's new song .
LOL .
Cute cute cute !
No matter how you see it , its still the same .
FOODY .
US :D
Hip Hop Yo !~
Our bedddd ! :D
First day at KL !

The rest of the pictures were , NOTHING MUCH !
Hahaha, and it load damn long .
So I just choose afew .
Shall update joey's blog another day .
Lazzzzzzzzzzy ass me .
:D

Got to go chiong and study alr .
BYEBYE :D

;D ;D ;D Actually , not that happy today .

2010-01-05T21:35:00.003+08:00

Introducing my current favourites ! :D

My new facourite ! Teppei Koike !
Damn damn cute guy !
That acted in lovely complex movie !
That's where I fell in love with him :D
<3

Next on is Evan Yo !
Cai Min You !
A super talented cutie !
:D
Damn obsessed with him uh .
xD
Next on er jie/ er ma !
:D
I love her to the maxxxxxxxxxxx man !
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&Of course , how can we left out our CUTE CUTE JOEYYYYYYYY ?!
Hahahahha , damn naughty now .
>.<Last but not least , MY MOST MOST FAVOURITE !
DANSON ! DANSON ! DANSON !
Hahahaha , :D
<3~100

Alright , shall end here .
Just a super random post .
xD

Trip pictures up next time !

CHRISTMAS NIGHTMARE !

2009-12-26T16:53:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha , Christmas is so not funn !
>.<
Okay , this blog is still dead , not one's tagging .
=.=
~~Morning~~Afternoon woke up !
Went to grandma house for lunchhhhhhh !
(:
Its STEAMBOAT !
But the chicken rice ..
Didnt felt like eating it .
So started on my anime !
Lovely Complex !
Recommended by ADORA !~
(:

So watch watch watch ,
and only ate the ingredients for steamboat .
Wasnt full , went to aunt's house for DINNER .
(:
Food wasnt very nice , so again .
Wasnt full !

Played cards with cousin , a new game .
It was prettty fun (:
But need use brain .
Hope can still play it again sometime :D

After that , went to kopitaim at bedok to da bao food .
Coz I WAS STILL HUNGRY .
&I SAW MY TUITION FRIEND !
=.=
OMG LA .
I was hoping I saw the wrong person .
But after I went home , he told me he saw me on msn .
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !~
-pulls hair-

Walking back to my father's car that time ,
got 2 guys following me and my sister =.=
OMFG .
Its damn scary , as it was like 11 pm in the night !
-faint-
I rushed and open the door , and they turn and walked back .
PHEW !
One of them still keep looking at my direction .
WALAUUUUU .
HOW SUAY CAN THIS GET !

Went home , wanted to watch the anime , BUT CANNOT LOAD !
AHHHHHHHHHH .

WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME MANNNNNN !
T.T

BACK ! ~

2009-12-24T15:55:00.003+08:00

Bet nobody missed me .
Hahahaha , sad but true fact .
Hohohooh .

Anyway , trip to Malaysia was okay .
Sometimes its like damn bored ._.
Sometimes its like damn sad ):
Sometimes its like damn happy :D
Sometimes its like damn angry >:(

But still , I learnt something from it .
I found out something .
I realised something .

&I told myself ,
I'm never going there again with my family .
Its not like its going to be this way , because I probably have no say in this .

Okay !
Enough of those , let's start !

DAY ONE ! ~~~~~~~

Woke up at around 5am ,
gathered things , and off to grandma house !
With an empty stomach =.=
Drank milo there ~
&Set off to KL at around 7 perhaps ?

Following the GPS was sort of fun .
If you have read the previous post you would know what's my job !
>.< style="font-size:180%;"> D-VILLA . (D for Danson !)
;D

Went to Times Square ~
Its indoor theme park is damn big .
:0
We ate some dont know what thing .
Using stone to cook the meat , its tasty uh .
:D

Ate Ice Cream too ~
Its like damn damn nice , my choco-late ~

Went back on taxi , as we went there by taxi too .
Scared lost and it was raining too ~
Almost kanna scam , lucky my parents are smart .
hehehehe .

Stayed for a night , and ...

DAY TWOOOOOO !~

Set off for genting !
But before there , went to KL tower !
Hahaha , very high high up !
(:
Bought some stuff , and had a ponyy rideeee .
The animal section was quite interesting , the spiders are creeeeeepy .
The monkeys are cute !

Wanted to try the F1 stimulator , but no time ~
&The queue was blooooody long .
So decided to proceed on to GENTING !!!

Set the GPS and off we go !
It was quite fast .
We checked in , and Joey went to sleeep .
So I went exploring (shopping) at First world !
With my uncle and grandfather !
The rest , sleeeeping in the hotel =.=

Bought gifts and presents !
From 6 pm to 8 pm !
Then went back .
Went to dinner after that ~
I forgot what we ate .
LOL .

Some noodle store .
LOL .

Then Joey went to sit the Merry-Go-Round !
8RM !
=.=

&I wasnt the one to follow her up !
Hahaha .

After that , they were tired , so we went back .
My father , sister and I then went back to the arcade !
WOOOOOOO , played BASKETBALL !~
That's what we always play , the rest were SO-NOT-FOR-ME !
xD

I OWNNNN MAN !
Hahaha , beat my father and my uncle .
While my sister tries to hit a hundred points .
Its like NIGHT EXERCISE ~
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO ~
LOL .

The most fun thing is BASKETBALL .
Hahaha .

Okay !
Then went backkkkk !~
Think we drank coffee at the coffee bean !
But cant remember which day it was (:

DAY THREEE ! ~

Its my other uncle's birthday ! ( Uncle ben )
Who just arrived only TODAYYYYYYYYYYY ~
Hahaha , with cute cute lerler (Leticia) !
&His friendsssss ~

Okay , so we went for dinner together !
Its like 128RM for each person !
&The best thing is , NOT WE PAY ! (xD xP)
LOL .

Okay , then we went to sit the ferris wheel !
Not me , but my uncles , lerler and JOEY !
They are having lots of funnn man .
I love to see leticia's smile .
:D

After that is , NIGHT EXERCISE ~
WHICH MEANS BASKETBALL TIME !
Hahaha , damn damn funnnn uh .

Oh yeah , brunch at KTV ! :D
We gotta Be A Star ! (note : KTV name (: )
Before we can walk the Star Walk !
LOL , quoted from my uncle (:

DAYYYYYYYYYYYY FOUR ! ~~~

Went down the mountian .
LOL .
To Gotong Sports Centre !
The ultimate BASKETBALL ARCADE (only applies to me) !
CHEAP LIKE SIAO .
LOL , 50 cent (RM) PER TOKEN .
Play at Genting is like 3credits ( 1 RM per Credit)

MY HEAVEN :D

Hahah , ate lunch there .
Hohoho , played basketball with 22 RM worth of token .
One game = 2 tokens .

THE CHAMPION TEAM WONNNN! ~
(Me&Uncle Bernard)

My father team with my sister .
HAHAHA , our score is like 200 ++
NOBODY CAN BEAT IT .
LOL .

My grandpa also can win my mum !
-evil laugh-

Then around 5 plus , headed on to STRAWBERRY FARM !
Damn cool , hahaha .
After that went back up !

&&& , I forgot what happened .
-checks sister's blog-
Oh well , didnt help much .

Okay !

BLAH BLAH BLAH .
LOL .
I think we watched YES MAN !
:D
Then went out to ARCADE AGAIN .
Changed the tickets for a bag !
That's the enddddd .
Went to ate MARRYBROWNNNN :D

DAY FIVEEEEEEE ! ~~~~~

Woke up !
Ate some stuff , cup noodles .
Off to KL !
But halfway through , Joey puked .
So stopped halfway , at the Gotong Sports Centre again !
Went to the strawberry farm to buy more strawberries (:

Then went to GSC and played basketball !
But this time its not the street basketball uh .
Its the , HOW TO EXPLAIN MAN .
But whatever , I STILL WON MY UNCLE . (main point)
HEH HEH HEH .

Got back on the road and went to KL's CHINATOWNNNNN !
Bought stuffs , and met this scary guy .
I saw a pair of purple shades , so I went to ask the price .
He said : 45RM .
I was thinking : WAHSEH , I thought 15RM only .
-Put back , walks away-
He said : HOW MUCH YOU WANT GIRL ?
Totally freaked me OUT .
-walks even faster-
He said : HOW MUCH YOU WANT ? YOU TELL ME ?
-shakes head , speeds up-

Oh my , then I saw another darker shade of purple shades .
Father bought it at 22RM for me (:

COOOL MAN .
Hahaha , didnt buy much thing .
I WANT TO GO THAT PLACE AGAIN !
I CAN SPEND THE WHOLE DAY THERE MAN !

Had to go back , coz father scared dark cannot see road .
So headed back around 5 plus .
After like probably an hour or more , arrived at A&W !
WOOHOOO ~

BEST MAN , curly fries ROCK .
LOL .
Then went back to Singapore ~
Reached home at 11 plus .

:D
It may seem like a nice trip , because I didnt include the unhappy things .
HAHAHAHA .
Okay , that's the point !
Who wants to remember the bad things that happened right ?
Okay , shall end here .

Pictures up next time !
Tata ~~~

Malaysia , Kuala Lumpur . DAY 1 (:

2009-12-19T21:38:00.003+08:00

Heheheh .
First day to malaysia !
Didnt sleep on the car .
Hahaha , used the GPS !
Gave my father instructions !
hehehe .

But is damn damn stress lor .
=.=
So scared go wrong way ,
then in the end really did .
Was very afraid that my father would be angry , he seems pissed though .
Hahaha , but nevertheless we manage to reach .
(:

Went to times square .
Very big , alot of things , but didnt buy anything lor .
Tml going to genting le .
Hehehehe .
Okay , shall go now .
byebye !

PS : Oh yeah , i staying at D-Villa Residence !
D FOR DANSON ! ;D
HAHAHAHAHA
;D

Malaysia !

2009-12-19T06:27:00.001+08:00

I'm leaving for Malaysia today !
No , LATER !
Hahahaha , didnt sleep alot .
Slept at like 2 plus , woke up at 5 plus .
Hahaha , now at grandma house .
Gonna eat breakfast .
Hehehehe .

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Hahaha , Joey is tagging along ~~~
WOOOO , I cant wait for the arcade !
So scared I forget bring anything .
LOL .

SIAN MAN .
I never bring alot of things lor .
Even lesser than camp !
LOL , only clothes , psp and TKAM .
LOL , oh yeah , I LOST MY LIT HOMEWORK !
NOOOOO !~

Somebody scan for me prettty PLEASEEE ?
:S

我相信我將會看到彩虹的美麗 ;

2009-12-15T23:47:00.003+08:00

I'm so in love with yang chen lin's 雨爱！
Its so nice laaaa ~
Hahahaha .

I'm currently watching hai pai tian xing (:
Its interesting and damn funny !
Heheheheh .

LZX IS CUTEEEEEE ~
But not as cute as Danson .
Hahaha , he so kind to his fans man !
OMG LAAA ~
I recently watched videos about him .
Hahaha , nice nice nice .
I was wondering why I like him .
Then as I watch the videos , slowly , I know why ~

Hehehehe .

Okay !
Fencing practices are fun fun fun !
Hahaha , except for the warm up uh .
Teeeheee .
I won AMOS !
YES !
5-1 !
HAHAHAHA , finally took revenge .
Hohohoho .

He won me the first time , 5-2 :D
But I'm still happy .
Today beat cheri with 5-1 again !
HAHAHAHAHA .

But I keep losing to dawn .
&I keep bending down =.=
Hahahah .
Fun fun day .
Today got night training , so like double tired .
LOL .

Heheheh .
I'm so happy today .
Amos is like Hehan .
See his face , I'll laugh .
Eat KFC halfway , I laugh until stomach pain .
=.=

We suppose to reach tunglin sec at 7pm in the end like 7.44 then reach .
LOL , and its like everyone that timing .

Went home on dawn's father's car !
THANK YOU ! :D

My legs so damn tired nowwww .
Going malaysia on the 19th .
Havent started on homework yet !
xD
DIE MAN DIE !
Hehehehhe .

Okay , shall goooooooo now .
BYEBYE ! :D

Fencing ! (:

2009-12-10T22:27:00.002+08:00

Fencing is damn tiring .
But it was quite fun overall .
I love the reaction testing part .
Reaction games are fun .
(:

Training was tough , I think I'm alr half dead by the time warm up is over .
Hahahaha .
We learn footwork , attack , and defend .
Footwork consist of moving forward , backwards and on guard .
It really strains my right leg .
Hahaha , my right butt too .
=.=
Morning cant get out of bed .
Hahaha .

Then attack is lunge , re-attack , step lunge and balistria ?
Hahaha I forgot what's balistria .
Dont even know spelling correct not .

Anyway , defend .
Defence consist of blocking la .
8 kinds of parry but we only learn 4 .
4 main , quarte parry (4th) , sixte parry (6th) , septime parry (7th) and octave parry (8th) .

Hahaha , quite interesting .
But i dont think i can carry on like that everyday .
Can die .
LOL .

But its funnnn and enjoyable .
Oh yeah , I lost all 3 matches when we tried fighting .
LOL , pathetic .
Okay , shall go nowwww .
Byebyeeeeee .

Weird dreams as always !

2009-12-01T21:15:00.002+08:00

Hello !
Anyone missed me ?
Hahaha , probably not .

Anyway , its ZheOhLin here ! ;D
Jolin has been mumbling weird things when she sleeps .
From what I was told from her sister .
She was sleeping , and suddenly sits up and say .
"Do you wanna eat shampoo ?"
Blur sister said , " HARH ?"
Jolin blindly repeat , ( yes blindly , eyes were closed )
" Do you wanna eat shampoo ? "
Before her sister can reply , she fell back on to the bed and carry on .

She didnt even know it when she woke up .
Nice eh ?
&I heard her telling about all the dreams she had .
Like for example today , she fell asleep while trying to make her baby sister sleep .
(Its the 2nd time alr , btw )
Then she dreamt about going to school and take the Sec4 booklist from the bookshop auntie .
(Probably because her mum is pressurizing her on finding where the booklist is .)
Weird dreams by weird people .

Oh well , she's at her grandma house now .
She doesnt know what to do .
She's hasnt started on homework yet .
&Of course as usual , she doesnt know what her father is thinking .
Her emotions are on a roller coaster , and the sad and angry ones stay longer .
Oh , what sad life .

I do hope it improves because I dont want to see her like this .
Yesterday she played wii at her aunt's house .
First time okay , so she was very excited .
She was screaming throughout .
Hahahah , very long never see her like that le .
*sighs*

Oh well , shall go now .
Its quite a lengthy post I suppose (:
Bye now !
`loveee ZheOhLin ! ;D

BACK FROM NYAA CAMP ! :D

2009-11-27T14:00:00.001+08:00

NYAA ~
Hahaha , the camp is damn fun uh !
Hahaha .

Because of the rainy weather , H1N1 , alot of things cancelled .
But still its fun !
Its more relaxing like a leisure camp !
:D

Totally loved it ~
Except for the leeches and stuff .
Hohohohoho .
&The room that is super infested with flies =.=
That sends me screaming and running outside the room when it attacks me .
Hahahah .

OVERALL ITS FUN FUN FUN !
Hope there's another chance to do it again !
;D

HOUSEFLIES ROCK ON !
HOHOHO .
xD

NYAA CAMP !

2009-11-22T16:11:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow will be going to malaysia alr !
*screams*
Dont know to be excited or what sia !

Hahaha , I scared the leeches !
But those activities seems fun !
AHHHHHH .
*pulls hair*

LOL .
Seriously .
=.=

Ohkay ohkay .
*breathes in and out*
Camp bag isnt really packed .
But maybe 3 quarter done .
Hahaha .

Scared tml cant wake up .
T.T
Still thinking of games to bring there !
Hahahaha .
Okay , shall go now .
byebye ! ;D

&&My father is so good la !
Know I very picky , bring me go eat nicenice food first .
LOL .
Then go there shou ku =.=

JOLIN-STIC !

2009-11-21T15:31:00.002+08:00

Yo people !
ZheOhLin is back ?
Missed me ?
Hahahaha .

Because of me , Jolin's blog is getting updated everyday .
Hohohoho .
;D

She was reading manga in her room the whole night !
=.=
Seems like a nice story .
Hohoho .
&Her sister was in the room talking to her while playing the psp .

Her sister was trying to tell her a joke at 3am when the alarm rang .
But she's so gong !
She doesnt even get it la !
Hahahaha !

Ohyeah , then she went to the kitchen to cook maggie mee ~~
How I wish I can eat it too ~
*fantasizes*

&SHE SHARE WITH HER SISTER !
I'm so JEALOUS !
>.<

That lazy pig only went to sleep at 4am .
I could barely make it home awake too .
xD
She woke up at only 2 plus PM !
What a pig !

She had fishball noodles for lunch .
I think that's all ?
Think she's gonna read the manga again when she uses the com .
So long !~
Tata ~

`Loveeeee ,
ZheOhLin (:

Hohoho !~ I'm back again !

2009-11-20T22:28:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone ! ;D

ZheOhLin here !
Hahaha , missed me ?
Oh yeah , I shall keep updating this blog for her .
See how great I am ?

Hohoho , so poor Jolin !
Since holidays had started , she's been going back !
For 3 whole weeks now , not a single day free and not spent in school .
=.=
Which makes my job harder because I cant enter the school .

I can only watch her from far ~~~
*musicstarts*

Ohyeah , today she went back to school for chem .
Apparently she's very tired .
=.=
I hope her grade improves soon or else ~~
Why am I worrying here for her anyway ?

Hahaha , okay i'm such a long wind-ed stalker .
Hohoho .

So after chem , she went and had breakfast with her bestfriend johanna .
They went to macs .
She ate big breakfast .
Its so tempting , so I got one myself too (:

Then she went home bringing the undrank-ed milo .
I wonder who is it for ?

Hmm , she went out about 3 plus after the bigbig rain stopped .
Seems like she went to her grandma house with her sister walking in the front .
Jolin looks angry .
So angry that she didnt even notice I board the same bus as her .
hahahaha !

Stalking was never easy you know !
It was a double deck , her sister sat on the top and she at the bottom .
On the way walking to their grandma house , their gap was pretty wide .
&It doesnt just stop there , it gets wider .
Because her sister walks faster , and she walks slower .
LOL .

Okay it isnt funny .
Looks like she's really pretty pissed off huh .
&She seems cold too .
Probably the cold wind .
But sort of cooling I guess .

She kinda enjoyed it , since she didnt go up immediately .
She sat at the void deck of her grandparent's house .
She was playing sudoku =.=
Seriously , why did I fall in love with such a weird girl ?

After answering a call , she looked as though she's crying .
I wonder what's bothering her afterall .
But she went up after that .

She went up to sleep afterall .
=.=
Coming all the way to sengkang just to sleep till dinner time .
What's wrong with her ?

Anyway , shall be signing off.
Continue next time ! ;D

`Loveeeee ,
ZheOhLin

SweetSweetDream(:

2009-11-19T22:04:00.003+08:00

Okay here goes !

Jolin had a dreammmmm ~
Oh 15th November !

She dreamed of a guy , I dont know who .
Seems like she saw that guy at NTUC !
&They were snatching for the chocolate .
=.=
Isnt it a lame dream ?
Then it went on to having a bbq .
It was at a condo she didnt go before .
I wonder how she get there .

Anyway , she went swimming with her friends .
I forgot who were those friends of her .
&Surprisingly , she met that GUY AGAIN .
LOL .

It shocked her , he appeared behind her !
:O
*insertsterrifyingsound*
Then she tio shocked , fell into the pool =.=
So lousy right ?
But the smart thing she did was , make him fell together in !
HAHAHAHAHAA .

But no point , because both are wearing swim suits .
Omg , how bo liao her dream is man .
I cant see why she finds it so interesting .
Maybe she fell in love with that guy ? (she said that was her dream guy btw )
Is she stupid or what ?
The guy doesnt even exist .
Although she claims that she saw that guy in PRCS uniform .

SO WHAT ?
Its in her dream what !
I'm so much better aren't I ?

Oh , I forgot to introduce myself .
I'm ZheOhLin (:
Stalking her is currently my obsession .
Because , I happened to come across her bestfriend's blog ,
cherie i think she's called .
&Her stalker uses her blog , and even helps her update !
Ohmy , isnt it coool ?

I decided to pluck out my courage and do that too !
NOW I OFFICIALLY STALKING JOLIN !
Hohoho , isnt that fun ?
Oh yeah , I found out she likes to use Hohoho nowadays .

*soundofdooropening*

SHYT !
She just came back from tuition , got to go !
*run&hides*

夜深了我怎么办？寂寞了谁在身旁？

2009-11-14T14:11:00.002+08:00

Actually wanted to blog yesterday .
But didnt know what's wrong with the internet , it loaded like damn long and still not okay !
=.=

I dont think I have any readers .
So I'm blogging for myself !
WOOOOOOOO ~
lol .

My cousin told me to stay strong and cheerful !
YES I WILLLLLLL !~
HOHOHO , what for being sad anyway ?
Its bad for health right ?
xD

It would be hard , but its worth trying !~
If I get pass this , its gonna be very easy in the future isnt it ?
Hahahaha , I'm not alone !
I've got me , myself , and I (:

Cherie's style of blogging is damn cool .
Shall try it in the next post .
hohohoh .

xD

Today wake up in the morning , father fetch me to ws .
Met Miss Tan , and Miss Aidah and some other leader guides for the camp .
Did camp things ah , hahaha very tired -.-

Ate lunch with charmaine , now then reach home .
(:
Later going to see some relative's baby (:
Hope its cute .
Hohohoho .

SPA was okay !
Phew !
:D

But my internet still sucks .
This is a busy holiday , well no harm though .
If not will be damn sian at home .

Its something like I've lost my friends .
I just cant control my thoughts and feelings that's going wild .

-insertsnormalface-

2009-11-11T20:59:00.002+08:00

Morning was a happy day , evening was a bad day .
So overall , it was okay .
Just sort of busy .
=.=

I'm really so tired .
2 weeks can really kill .
&I thought it would pass so easily .

Today was a struggle with the GG stuffs .
Oh yes , its driving me mad .
Oh well , I'm alr insane .

But my brain is going to explode , information OVERLOADED .
=.=

Chemistry experiment was a hell lot of fun yeah .
(:

Tml got maths test .
Well , think I'm gonna be dead , because i dont understand a damn thing .
Anyway , I cant blame the teacher .
&Now ?

Still have to chiong gg camp plan , do bio homework , study for test .
&What ?
GG ended at like 7 plus , took bus , reached home alr gonna be 8pm .
=.=

EVERYTHING'S HAPPENING NOW , TURNING OUT THIS WAY IS BECAUSE OF ME .
都是因为我。

Just wanna add , I'm glad someone comforted me when I typed ,
"There's no one to catch me when I fall . "
Apparently someone even care that much , and she isnt even someone I know .
Hahahaha .
I'm not gonna smile because I HATE FAKE SMILES .
So long .

-insertslaughingface-

2009-11-10T16:44:00.002+08:00

Yesterday something made me laughed till my tears also flowed out .
Can imagine how funny is that right ?
My sister witnessed it .
Hohohoh ,
hehehehe ,
hahahahah .

Yeah , its damn damn funny .
But sadly , not everyone can see it .
Hahahaha .

Well , I just need to think of it to laugh .
Hear the voice ,
see the face .
Anything that's related would just spark me off .
;D

Hardly laugh so much .
Must cherish (:
Tata ~

Crap day .

2009-10-27T22:11:00.003+08:00

Hardly laugh nowadays .
Just like back in Secondary 2 .
Where my emotions just lay down .
Yeah , not say sad or anything .
Just emotionless .
LOL .

Doesnt that sound weird ?
But I sort of dont react .
&This year was pretty good for a start .
At the starting it was fun and enjoyable .

Problems only start occuring after the June holidays .
Well , not like I cant control my emotions or things that happened .
Many things change .

I even see things from a different perspective that I've never seen before .
A new world opened up for me .
But it isnt looking good .
Probably because , I learnt to see the other side of people .

I used to see only the good side .
I rarely see their true colours maybe because I'm oh so innocent&naive .
Yeah , crap .
But yeah , unless they really show it .

I can only see and detect the obvious , unluckily the person born with the face ?
Hahhaa .
Oh well , but once I see it .
I cant seem to forget it .
I listen and is able to see it from the person's view .
&Everything I used to think about him or her just vanish into thin air .

I feel so easily influenced now .
So insecure .
So doubtful of my own judgment .

Oh my , what the hell is happening to me ?

-insertspissedoffface-

2009-10-26T21:05:00.002+08:00

hmm , wasnt very happy today .

But still , I find myself lucky uh .
;D

After bio , went to dawn's house practice the water polo .
Its quite boring being the catcher .
Lalalalala ~
But it was still okay I guess .

Went to macs for dinner .
Walked home alone .
Well , that's all .

All I want to say is that ,
I love the night wind (:

...

2009-10-20T22:49:00.002+08:00

Results were damn disappointing , but I can only blame myself .

Just feel so emotional nowadays .
Its like those little things that I wouldnt have bothered or cared about it in the past ,
I just dont know why but I kinda feel for it ?

Like I find this person just because she blah blah blah then cry ,
but now that i experienced it myself , I sort of know how she must have felt at the moment .
Things that I dont expect myself to react that particular way , it just happens .

I cant seem to control my feelings .
I cant seem to control my tears .
&I dont know why .

Cant believe I read managa can also read until cry .
Listening to a song , heard words from certain people ,
can just trigger that tear gland of mine .

Crap , I think my brain is going crazy , might just break down .
Cant get anything in either .
You can try .

DAY OUT WITH THE RETARDS ;D

2009-10-19T21:27:00.002+08:00

Hahahaa , today was tiring but fun uh !
:D
:D
:D

Anyway , i overslept , yes .
AGAINNNNNNNNNN !
WAHWAH T_T

I even set alarm but didnt ring , or maybe i didnt hear it .
):
LOL .

Met at 11am , but woke up at like 1055 =.=
But reached at 1115 .
HAHAHAH , coz my father fetch .
MUHAHAHAHA .

Okay , so we went to eat BRANCH first :D
My breakfast and subha's , the rest is lunch .
LOL .

Ate jap foood .

Then went to the BEACH !
Rent skates .
LOL , 2 hours .
Spend like 30 mins wearing the gears properly .
1 hour to reach the skating ring .
LOL !

But it was fun la .
I fell on my butt twice .
=.=
WTF , the boys curse me lor .
WALAU , I HOPE THEY FALL OFF THEIR BICYCLES !
HAHAHAHA , SO OLD ALR THEN STILL DONT KNOW HOW TO RIDE BIKE !
LOUSY ASSSSSSSSSSSSSES !
>.<

Hehehehhe , curse them !
Who call them curse me first , assssholes sia .

Omg , my blog become so vulgar liao .
hahahah .

Okay , then went to elias slack !
Talk with subha and jessica for like 1hour plus !
LOL , from 430 to 6 !
Then walked home with subha ;D

Okay , wanted to watch show but didnt .
Ended up talking to my father .
:D
Hahaha , crime and investigations are soooo fun ! ^^v

YAY !

2009-10-16T16:17:00.000+08:00

Exams are over !
WOOOOO !
Finallllllllly !
Hahahahhahaa .

So lucky this few days keep seeing primary school friends ! ;D

CHERIE ! CHARMINE !
Must find one day go out !

Today quite fun uh , though nobody asked me out .
LOL .

So lonely right ?
Thought so until I went home and saw my father at home !
LOL .

Means , cannot sleeeeeeeep !
Plus have to pack rooom .
So I pack awhile , then he went to clear the fish tank .
Helped him buy food .
Then went to buy fishes with him !
WOOOOOOO .
lol .

Now the fish tank so nice thanks to me ;D
lol .

My father is so funny .
Hope Joey notices the fishes ;D

Bad day .

2009-10-03T23:13:00.001+08:00

I'm an idiot , idiot , idiot .

2009-08-23T13:51:00.000+08:00

Today I did this !

I dont think I'll be blogging here often anymore .
Blogger still got this freaking problem .
Or maybe its my COM !
I hate my internet ! D:

Ghost Festival !

2009-08-20T22:08:00.000+08:00

Omg , the atmosphere damn scary can ?
&Blogger is giving me problems again !
I cant add colour so yeah .

Anyway , this week is kinda different for me .
I dont know what is happening .
To this world or to me .
Haha , probably its just me .

Its like everytime I talk , nobody listens .
Like halfway and someone interrupts , gone .
Finished , end .
Its like my topic is boring .
Okay , maybe my topic IS boring that's why .
Or maybe they just cant hear it right ?

But it just feels so wrong .

Anyway , just now my father trick me lor !
>.<
Say ghost festival dont dare come out so never fetch me from tuition !
Scare me sia !
D:

LOL .
Tricker !
hahaha .
I so scared to sleep alone can .
Yesterday ; a scary night .
:O
Byebye ;D

LATE ~

2009-08-13T22:22:00.002+08:00

Today late for school man !
AHHHHHHHH D:
lol .

First time of the year !
D:

Lucky never kanna detention !
;D
Because first time .
=.=
But still need to run around the parade square 3 rounds .
Omg , my stomach damn pain lor .
D:

School was fun .
Sigh , results totally sucks can ?
Almost failing every single test and subject .
I failed my CHINESE .
Omg , first time .
D:
Wtf wtf .
AHHHHH , I'm so screwed up now .
Totally no mood to listen at all .

My end of year .
My goals .
Die die die .
D:

Sad case .

NATIONAL DAY PARADE !

2009-08-11T21:26:00.002+08:00

NDP is fun !
Especially the pledge taking moment .
Damn cooool .
The fireworks is super nice !

;D
Its pretty sad that its the last and final day for us together !
T_T
But still , I think I will remember this moment forever ! ;D
I had such a great time .
Hahah .
Even though I complain every week .

I love the KFC .
LOL .
I loved that saturdays that I can dont do my homeworks .
xD
Although I still complain that I need to wake up early .
Hahaha .

We should have a party man !
Sort of a farewell party or something .
Hahaha .
;D

Ndp is fun !
&I dont regret joining it .
I enjoy every moment of it .
;D
This is such a rare experience that I would surely treasure it !
^^

Hahah , didnt manage to post that day because blogger is giving me problems .
Hahahah .
Oh well , dont really update .
My readers all zhao alr !

From like hundred a week drop to 10 or even less you know !
Hahaha , should I start blogging again ?
heheheeh .
I dont know .
So busy nowadays .
HOMEWORK .
OMG .

Especially MATHS .
&Yeah , thank you ching ying for treating me food and drinks since I dont know when !
Today she just treated me bubble tea again .
OMG , I LOVE YOU MAN .
LOL .

My results are dying .
omg , someone come and save me man !
Where's my prince on the white horse ?

Charity works !

2009-08-03T21:18:00.000+08:00

Thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuu to .............

SUBHA !
SHERMAN !
SPENCER !
SIEW HAN !
DAWN !
SHANE !
YUE PING !
LINDSEY !
CHING YING !
DARRELL !
WEN LIN !
KAI HOE !
VANESSA !

FOR DONATING TO THE RED CROSS BIAZZARE TICKET EVEN THOUGH THEY CANT QUALIFY FOR THE LUCKY DRAW !
THANK YOU VERY MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !

HAO XING YOU HAO BAO ! ;D

Update !

2009-07-26T15:52:00.000+08:00

Long time never blog alr !

But anyway , yesterday NDP was tiring !
D:
In the end , have to walk so much even after training !
Just because my father dont want to fetch .

I was super pissed la .
My heels are hurting like hell .
WTF WTF WTF .

Anyway , school was quite fun .
Just that there is so many homework !
&I dont seem to get it .
Omgomgomg .
I cant fail you know .

&Maths common test , guess I'm dead .

Currently addicted to backstreet boys';
-Why do I love you
-Lose it all
-Just want you to know

;D Stay happy peeps !
I know my blog is dead .
But I dont care ! XP

Taste of Bread !

2009-07-16T22:18:00.002+08:00

Taste of bread song is so damn nice !
Hahahaha !

;D
Its fun fun fun mannnnnnnnnn !
Today I meant .
LOL . Played the bluetack with sherman .
xD
Earstick yeah .
LOL .

English was scary .
Okay , kinda .
DIDNT EXPECT AMOS TO SABO ME !?!?!
OMG LA .
=.=

He's so gonna get it .
I'm gonna pick on him .
lol .
Watch out !
>:(

Then walked Johanna home and went back with Subha .
Cheer up la Johanna ! ;D
The retards will be there for you okay ?
;D

Tml's friday !
Today tuition damn funny .
LOL .

Okay , I'm done .
Seeya ;D

Laughing Virus is still in me !

2009-07-16T00:26:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha !
Today was quite fun uh .

Chinese lesson teacher never come !
YAY .
;D

Then SS chiong-ed the ws .
Wanting to slack after that .
But right after we finish , the stupid bell rang .
DAMN , ss only one period .
>.<

Maths is boring .
Mr Kek likes to lecture about life lessons .
Which is quite enjoyable .
LOL .
His voice goes up and down randomly .
Which is quite amusing .
xD

&During Bio , Amos did a very digusting thing !
He ate the mentos that was dropped on the floor !
OMG LA !
Then Miss Tan so funny sia , keep saying things to make him digusted .
But apparently it didnt work .
=.=

Then went home with jean and jeannie !
Hahaha .

Tuition was funnn !
lol .
I kept laughing with and AT felicia .
Hahahaha !

Okay , tml got chinese .
DAMN , 2 periods .
I'm in for a difficult time .
CRAP .

YO YO !

2009-07-14T20:54:00.003+08:00

Oh well , my blog's gonna be dead dead dead !
No one comes here anymore .
But I dont care .
LOL .

Okay !
Saturday got NDP !
Was fun fun fun !
Hahah , just that city march was very very tiring ! :X
Reached home at 11pm close to 12 !
>.<

Then woke up around 10-11 ?
Hahaha , did my homework .
So guai right ?

Then went out around 2 plus .
Got scolded after that =.=
Lalala~
Whatever .

Then went to grandma house and had dinner .
Went homeeeee !
Fell asleep while revising for chem . = never set alarm !

MONDAY ended up waking at 7am !
Almost late !
School was sort of fun ?
LOL .
Went to ws after school to meet dawn ?
Treat myself bubble tea !
LOL .

Then didnt on com , slept at 12 plus .
This morning sister dont have school .
Almost late also =.=
Stupid jam .

Today was a loooooooooong day .
Should have alr been wednesday today !
Cant wait !
LOL .
I love PE .
I want play games , but I dont want to run !

I finished all homework except sponty and chinese !
OMG , i cant believe I'm going to seee that woman for 2 periods tml !
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH >.<
NOOOOOOOOOO !
I dont want mannnnnnnnn !
Ew .

I'm starting to hate chinese .
Ohwell , seeya !

YO YO !

2009-07-14T20:54:00.000+08:00

HappyHappyDay !

2009-07-09T23:36:00.003+08:00

;D
Happy happy !
LOL .
Today talked too much .

Think my place is gonna change soooooon !
lol .

Morning stepped into classrooom , mrs low asked me to sweep the floor alr .
LOL .
But I kinda enjoy sweeping the flooor .
Though my favourite is still CLEANING THE WHITEBOARD !
Shane and Jonathan always fight with me .
LADIES FIRST OKAY !
lol .

Anyway , the laughing virus is still in me .
It kinda got into siew han and dawn .
Jingyi and I aint cured yet either .
LOL .

I sneeze like a guy .
lol .
Sherman has mean brain !
xD
Amos owe me 8 slaps !
*evil laugh*

Awwwwwwww , backstreetboys' songs are driving me insane !
&So is english homework !
>.<

Hahahaha !
I wanna die =.=
:X

CCA CANCELLED !

2009-07-07T23:53:00.002+08:00

LOL .
No cca today !
;D
LOL .

I finished absolute boyfriend !
The comic uh .
Damn nice seh !
Hahahaha .
But the ending so sad D:
T_T

Anyway , today school was sort of fun ?
LOL .
Started changing chinese songs lyrics with siew han again !
Hahaha .
Damn funnnnnnny one .
xD

Its such a surprise I didnt feel tired or sleeply at all today !
Hahah , slept at 2am last night .
Shouldnt have stayed up to do english , had I known teacher wouldnt be coming .
Crap !
>.<

Got to sleeeep early tonight !
;D
Hahahahhaha .
Tml got PE !
Hope we dont get to run .
I prefer games .
Haha , I'm a lazy girl .

I'm suddenly so into backstreetboys' songs .
:O

Hahaha ~
I'm still infected with the laughing virus .
Unfortunately .
&I think my blog is dead .
LOL .
First time in history !

Readers !
COME BACK !
&&So sad cant post any pictures .
D:
LOL .
Will try it next time .
Meanwhile , I'll present one of our works !

Featuring Evan Cai Ming You's 我可以（改版）

寄没有地址的信
寄给谁都行
就不是你

你放了什么臭屁
让我感到恶心
看到你就想vomit

天下着暴风雨
你看连god都想教训你
千万可不要得罪人
我在你背后
偷偷curse你

我宁愿赔她去看星星
也不要陪你去（说你非常小气）
因为我真的讨厌你
我很想一辈子都不见到你
我多么想每一次的美丽
都没有你

Ｃｏｐｙｒｉｇｈｔｅｄ　ＳＩＥＷＨＡＮ＆ＪＯＬＩＮ!
lol !Ｅｎｊｏｙ　！　ｘＤ

NDP !

2009-07-05T14:50:00.003+08:00

WOOOOO , yesterday was sort of fun .
LOL .
Kept singing with one of the NDP girls . {She dont know BARNEY ! O-M-G !}
YEAHHHHH !
Nursery Rhymes Rock !
Hahaha .

Today woke up my butt damn pain .
LOL .
I also dont know why uh =.=

Anyway , 10th year anniversary ushering isnt that fun .
I prefer ushering with Joeyee !
lol .
So much more fun la .
Some of the guest are so bloody rude .
=.=

Then took lots of pictures with Subha !
Not alot la , plenty .
LOL .
Took some pictures of Sherman, Amos and Wen Lin in the uniform .
SO HANDSOME ! {Of course 70% of the handsomeness goes to Sherman . lol , jkjk xD}
lol .

Shall post it up !
;D
I have so much photos I wanna edit !
Went to Ikea after walking back home with Subha .
Hahaha , talked about lots of things !
;D

Kinda enjoyed the day afterall .
Monday's gonna be boring !
LOL .
I must find something to do .
&Oh , I havent started on my homework yet .
Ha-Ha-Ha .
Though it isnt funny .

Oh well , I lazy to find songs also .
Find le need load , load until I pek chek .
LOL .
Ta-ta ~!

New Skin !

2009-07-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

I've Caught the LAUGHING VIRUS from Jingyi !
Hahahahaha .
Such a funny day .

Going to school is fun nowadays ;D
But the problem is the HOMEWORK .
Its only the first WEEEEEEEEK .
&They are bombing homework ON US .
Oh my , poor us .

COMMON TEST IS NEXT WEEEEEEEEEK .
:O
Yes , panic all you want .
I dont care .
=.=
Okay not really dont care , but what can I do man ?

Anyway , tml's 10th year aniversary !
&Also my mother's birthday !
WOOOOOOOOO :D
Happy Birthday Mummy !
I love ya ! <3

I want go kbox !

&&Dont you think this blogskin is so damn CUTE ?!
I love this movie ! ^^v
YAY ME .
&&&I love my blogsong !
Pity its just 30 seconds .
Stupid Imeem !
>.<

Big THANKS to Amos for treating me food the past few days !
Hahahahaha .
XIE XIE NI !
Arigato !

I'm in high spirits .
Today , tuition was fun too .
xD

UPDATE !

2009-06-26T00:27:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna changed a new blogskin sooooooooooon !
Tml going to zoooooooooo !
YAY ;D

Hahahahahahaha .
I'm going to put the love or bread song as my blogsong !

&&I still havent finish my homework yet !
YEAH GREAT !

Inconsolable
2009-06-13T22:33:00.003+08:00
I'm gonna lose it all ..

I am going to sleep early tonight .
I dont want to see him .
I dont want to talk to him .
I dont even want to try to avoid him .

Why is this happening all over again ?
I know things were alr not that good few days ago .
&Today when I try and thought we were okay alr ,
you did it again .
What have I done wrong ?

Your words , " You deserve it ."
I'll never forget it .
The words that truly hit me hard .
I didnt expect myself to react like this .
I didnt know the power of words could be so much .
I just couldnt control my tears .
I couldnt even feel it .

It wasnt the pain I felt on my finger .
It was the pain I felt in my heart .
Is this what you want ?
I should have known .
Yeah , I should have kept my distances .
I kept making excuses .
That maybe you were facing lots of stress .
That you wasnt in a good mood .

I always thought you are different .
I thought I could trust you .
The only guy I could have depend on my whole life .
But things changed .
I bet you dont even care now .

Is this just a fantasy all along from young ?
A lie ?
Just a lie ?

Today NDP was fine , wasnt as tiring as last week .
Next week we'll be heading to marina bay .

PICTURES !

2009-06-12T22:35:00.007+08:00

ENJOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !

PUT THEM TOGETHER ! MY FATHER SO CUTE ! *lovelove*

FEATURING JOEYYYYYYYYYYY ! <3>

I forgot how to spell her name ! BUT CUTE RITE ?

MY FAVOURITE PARAPET WORD ;D

I like cheri's cam more , my cam bo effects one D:

Isnt this coooooool ?

Blur pictures are nice !

What's this ? LOL .

LALALALA .

MY MRS BATMAN ! LOL .

TEDDY AND MR BLACK BEAN :D

CHERI !

TOILET PHOTO . LOL.

Ladies ! Dont be shy ! COME ON !

Didnt post the last time because of connection problem .
xD
Then I totally forgotten about it !
Sorry la cheri !

THANK YOUUU <3

2009-06-12T22:28:00.002+08:00

Haha , today went out with dawn and amos .
To celebrate amos and my birthday !
LOL .
It was okay la .
Quite fun .

;D
We watch a movie !
The ghosts of girlfriends past .

Haha , quite nice ah .
Ate sushi for lunch !
Dawn treat amos cheeeese cake .
Haha , but I dont eat so yeah .

Then went to dawn's house .
Create new maple character for the new KOC thing .
LOL .
Then walked with amos to the 88 bus stop again .
Hahaha .
Thank you very much !

Nothing much today though .
Tml have ndp .
Dont know should be happy or sad .
Hahaha .
Didnt take any pictures .
Only got amos one .
LOL .

My internet connection !
Parents gonna complain soon .
I hope they do .

happy boring birthday .

2009-06-11T23:21:00.003+08:00

i guess this is the saddest birthday ever .
hahaha .
dont know why .
it has been damn long since i feel so sad .

its a good thing though .
this shows that i've been happy every day .
hahaha , a reminder that i was not sad the days , months before .
guess its a good thing afterall .

but still , i feel alittle disappointed .
how i wish , today wasnt my birthday .
because it doesnt feel like one D:

hahaha .
nevertheless , i still wish to thank those that wished me .
it means alot to me la .
thanks !
love you guys loads .

Rotting at homeee :X

2009-06-11T18:43:00.001+08:00

I'm rotting at home on this special day .
LOL .
Played puzzle with ChingYing .
Didnt have breakfast or lunch .
LOL .
Yes , STARVING .

Might as well just have dinner .
Whatever la .
Yesterday talk with my sister so fun .
Until 4 plus then sleeep .
So only woke up this afternoon .
Didnt do much things .

Lalala .
Just bathed .
Going out for dinner sooon .
Hmmm .
I guess its just another birthday I dont think I will forget .
Since I've never been so bored .
LOL ..
Just like a normal day .

`No hopes , No disappointment .

Birthday Girl ! <3

2009-06-11T00:17:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOLIN !~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !

;D
Thank you for all the wishes !
The first person was AMOS !
Second was DAWN !
Third was EUGENE ( The first E dont cry la xD)
Fourth was CHARMINE !
Fifth was JOBAIN !
Sixth was SPENCER !
Seventh was SAMANTHA !
Eighth was YONG JIE !

WO AI SI NI MEN LE ! <3
Thank youuuuuu !

I'm gonna try and enjoy today as much as possible !
^^
Thanks everyone .
&Someone ask me go out and play !
Pretty Please ?

June Babies !

2009-06-10T14:04:00.002+08:00

Haha , sort of felt that there are alot of June babies .
Or it might be because I'm one of them , so I remember people that are born June better .
LOL .
The rest ah , heck care la .
LOL .
Joking la .
xD

Today SS test .
Crap la , yesterday night just started studying I fell asleep !
!@#$%&^&())
Forgot to charge my phonee tooo !
>.<

Morning took 3 wth cy and dawn .
Wasnt late .
;D

The test was okay .
But was damn tired .
After that went to e!hub eat macs with the retards .
I only kop people food .
Then went back for 10 year anniversary briefing .
LOL .
Only 10 mins .
Can go alr =.=

Went home then with subha .

Thank you everyone for the presents !
I LOVE YOU GUYS !
;Joeyee Wifey ! <3
-Your unique da bian cake guo ran got standard !
;Lindsey Teddy ! <3
-Wah , with those stars , I can make alot of wishes !
;Jia Ning daughter ! <3
-LOL , the message very funny . PUZZLE ! Faster online la ! xD
;Cheri ! <3
-I'll never let you go , of course and the present . LOL .
;Jessica wang zi ! <3
-Thanks for the purple present ! xD
;Subha&Johanna Pancakes ! <3
-Now I've got 2 purple pencil case ! LOL , thanks anyway ;D

I totally love the presents !
LOL .

But today is not my day .
So its still ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMOS ;D
lol .
Suay la he got NPCC .

I wanna go out !
Later still got maths tuition .
D:
I want go to the beach blow wind !
LOL .
Direct translation is weird but fun ;D
Though it sounds abit wrong .

Questionaire !

2009-06-09T22:53:00.002+08:00

Let's get this started !

1.Real name : Jolin Tan ;D
2.Nickname : Jol , Shuai Ge , Yellow Jellyfish !
3.Star sign : Gemini
4.Male or female : Female
5.Primary school : Meridian
6.Secondary school : Pasir Ris Crest
7.JC/POLY : Not yet
8.Hair color : Black
9.Long or short : Long
10.Loud or Quiet : Loud when w/ friends , then quiet w/o friends ;D
11.Sweats or Jeans : Jeans
12.Phone or camera : Camera Phone {LOL , I AGREE WITH JODY}
13.Health freak : Not really
14.Drink or smoke : Drink
15.Do you have a crush on someone : Currently ? NO . xD
16.Eat or drink : Drink
17.Piercings : 2 ;D
18.Tattoos : No

Have you ever :

19.Been in an airplane : Yeah !
20.Been in a relationship: Nope .
21.Been in a car accident : Nope
22.Been in a fist fight : Nope

Firsts:
23.First piercing : Primary 1
24.First best friend : Man Xin !
25.First award : Primary 4 3rd in class !
26.First Crush : Dont know xD
27.First Vacation : Malaysia I guess ?

Lasts :

28.Last person you talked to : Mother .
29.Last person you texted to : Dawn .
30.Last person(s) you watched a movie with: Amos and Dawn and Eugene .
32.Last food you ate : Dinner =.=
33.Last movie you watched : Angels and Demons .
34.Last song you listened to : Jiao ben by wang li hong .
35.Last thing you bought : Erm , bbt .
36.Last person you hugged : Joey !

Favourites:

37.Food : KFC !
38.Drinks : MILO ! Oreo Milo ! Oreo Chocolate ! Honey Juice !
39.Clothing : Purple clothings !
40.Books : Twilight series ! Marked series ! Vampire Accademy Series !
41.Song : Damn lots .
42.Flower : Lavenders !
43.Colors : Purple ! Green ! White ! Yellow !
44.Movies : 10 promises to my dog !
45.Phrase: I forgot .
46.Subjects: maths . But starting to hate .

You ever done before:

47.Kissed in the snow : No
48.Celebrated Halloween : No
49.Had your heart broken : Dont know ?
50.Went over the minutes on your cell phone : Dont get it .
51.Someone questioned your sexual orientation : Huh ? What does it mean ?
52.Came out of the closest : yeah .
53.Gotten pregnant : No -.-
54.Had an abortion : No -.-"
55.Done something you've regretted : Yeah
56.Broke a promise : Think so
57.Hid a secret : Of course
58.Pretended to be happy : Not really . I'm really bad at acting /
59.Met someone who changed your life : Dont know .
60.Pretended to be sick : yeah .
61.Left the country : Yeah
62.Tried something you normally wouldn't try & liked it : Yeah !
63.Cried over some silliest thing : yeah .
64.Ran a mile : Think so ?
65.Went to the beach with your best friend(s) : Yeah .
66.Stay single the whole year : DUH .

Currently:

67.Eating : Nothing
68.Drinking : Nothing .
69.I'm about ton : LOL . Maybe ?
70.Listening to : Wang Li Hong album .
71.Plans for tomorrow : Nothing really , quite booked .
72.Waiting for : This quiz to end .
73.Want kids : maybe ?
74.Want to get married : Hard to say .
75.Careers in mind : Lawyer .
76.Which is better , Girl / Boy : Boy bah .

(for 77-83 , idk what they're asking -.-" my answers are what am i looking for in a guy LOL. )

77.Lips or eyes : Eyes
78.Shorter or taller : Taller
79.Romantic or spontaneous : Spontaneous
80.Nice stomach or nice arms : LOL . Arms ?
81.Sensitive or loud : Not really sure .
82.Hook-up or relationship : Relationship
83.Trouble-maker or hesistant : LOL . Not really sure either . xD
Have you ever:
84.Lost glasses/ contacts : No
85.Ran away from home : Nope .
86.Hold a gun or knife for self defense : LOL . Think so .
87.Killed somebody : Nope /
88.Broken someone's heart : Maybe .
89.Been arrested : Nope
90.Cried when someone died : Yeah

Do you believe in:

91.Yourself : Sometimes
92.Miracles: Yeah
93.Love at first sight : Yeah
94.Heaven : Not really .
95.Santa Claus : Not really .
96.Sex on the first date : CRAZY .
97.Kiss on the first date : I believe it does happen . But not to me i guess .
98.Is there one person you want to be with right now : Hmm , nope .
99.Are you seriously happy with where you are in life : Quite .
100.This is the 100th & last question : Yeah .
Now tag 10 people to do this
I lazy tag .
No one will do anyway .
Want do jiu do lor .
xD

I'm suppose to be studying SS now .
Yeah , guess I'll be death tml ;D

Social Studies !

2009-06-09T21:18:00.002+08:00

I just realised I suck at humanities .
LOL .
I failed my history when I was sec 1 .
Now I failed my Social Studies .
The rest never fail before .

Monday was almost late for SS .
So took taxi .
Amos pay first la .
LOL .
Was kinda shock to see him on the taxi at first .
o.o
Didnt expect him to be in the taxi .

Then reach there never late .
Still must wait .
Might as well take bus .
I regretted the decision .
LOL .

Then went to e!hub eat BH . I dont know how to spell .
LOL .
Quite nice .
Then the guys keep talking making me laugh .
I choked twice !
>.<

Then went homeee .
The rest went back to school .

Going home alone isnt that scary afterall ;D

Then maple-d the whole day with my sister !
Fun seh :x
Haha .

Today !
Reached school damn early ! ;D
LOL .
So slacked there .
I went to diarrhea .
LOL .

Then went to watch Hotel Rwanda .
Its a nice show .
No nice sounds wrong .
Enjoyable doesnt fit in either .
LOL .
Okay its a good show .
YEAH , A GOOD SHOW .
Interesting .
Though kinda sad .

I no emotion one la .
=.=

Then went to WS eat !
With dawnny and chingying !
Haha .
Ate ramen !
NICE SEH .

Then went to my house .
Amos tagged along .
=.=
Then went to the aircon room downstairs play lor .
Went home take things and go down again .
Played abit of maple .
Then went up again .
Dawn slept .
I maple-d with my cousin ;D
Just looot la .
xD

Then went to buy bubble tea !
SHHHHH .
I'm not suppose to drink cold drink .
xD

Then send dawn home .
Walked with amos to the busstop .
Hahahaha .

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO AMOS !
;D
Very soon it'll be my turn !
WOOOOOOO .
xD